Girl in the past

I looked into my drawer..

few days ago

while I was still at Segamat..

In my lovely room..

I found a box..

belongs to the girl in the past...

The girl who was once so care-free...

having a life without worries...

with a limited view to world

It's a pretty box..

full of stars..

but isn't the one from the sky..

Had I nearly forgotten my past?

I smiled while looking at these bottles..

I smiled at how a little things able to draw a smile..

Had I change recently?

Losing my identity as well?

No, I wouldn't let that...

Let the girl in the past remain..

It's one of my hobby..

for now..

and always...

Keep them in bottles..

store them up..

put them back to drawer...

but don't erase them away..

cause They are my memories.

First Time...

I'm back.. to my lovely hometown again..

Hehe...

Proud of myself..

Real proud..

Cause this is the first time

I take public transport back here...

The bus ticket was 11am this morning

and my lecture suppose to end at 10.15am

which means...

It supposingly to have enough time

However,

the very first lecture was cancel due to unknown reason

and the second lecture start as usual..

This really isn't a smooth lecture timing..

(Shows how poor is lecture timing at IMU.. haha)

At the very second lecture,

the lecturer talk real long..

It's like one slide can talk almost 10 minutes..

Real long.. and most important...

She always talk about extra-academic information

Although that sounds interesting,

it would sounds nice

when she rush at the important academic info.

As the result of her favourite talking,

thanks to her..

We ended class at around 10.35am!!

I was like what la..

How am I suppose to go there on time??

SK decided to fetch me there previously..

However, her stuff is still in her room..

as well as mine..

I should have brought to class, right?

But laptop is really heavy la..

I thought there'll be enough time..

In a very rush way,

I really really hope that I can make it to the bus.

I don't want to wait for time to arrive there..

It's the first time...

and I don't want to hate that lecturer...

Thankfully,

after SK good rushing driving skills

I managed to arrive to the platform on time.

I nearly went up to a Malacca bus..

haha..

Well, all the buses are nearly the same

and I don't have time to ask for bus plat no.

Thank for the driver,

he told me the bus for Segamat...

So, there am I...

Found my seat..

and sit down..

and wish for the last thing...

That is no one sitting next to me..

and.. I'm blessed!

haha..

I can place my heavy laptop bag beside me..

Sitting comfortablely..

and hearing to songs..

trying to keep myself awake...

(View out of my view when rain pours)

I arrived safely to Segamat...

Got down too early

that I have to walk back a distance..

While walking at the side of road,

I laughed at myself..

because it just look like as though I'm homeless...

Eish.. why do I think that way ya?

Oh ya..

Dinner Mum order some dishes at restaurant

as a treat to me..

^^

Love to be back at home...

Be Happy...

It's Wednesday...

I LOVE Wednesday. Haha..

It's the day for a sport..

The day to shower yourself with sweat..

The day to go for a nice movie!! Haha..

After so many years on Earth,

Now.. Finally..

I realised that

"Don't worry la.. Be happy!"

very useful.. haha..

Super high efficient...

About my BS Interview previously,

my PBL groupmates decided to have practice together...

I'm sure I can fit in to play around

and have some fun..

It may not be as good as the "actor"

but it should be fun...

So, Candy is a happy person..

Won't think about that la...

Just a practice..

I screwed it up..

but I learnt from it.. haha..

Hopefully I won't be that nervous

on the real assigned Interview..

Give my best shot then...^^

Here's special about Wednesday:

haha.. :)

I went out with SK and WH for movie today..

Guess what?

SK is addicted to horror movie at cinema..

haha.. Me? I don't mind.. exciting and worth!

WH was a bit afraid yet..

she's there with us

After lunch at Time Square,

we went to the movie at GSC

watched Nightmare at The Elm Street

Well, it's just quite ok..

Probably because the sequence just a bit blurred

In the sense of story line..

Still prefer The Crazies.. haha

Didn't shout like previous..

As the result,

we arrived back by LRT to IMU at around 5.30pm

and the training for Club start at 5.30pm

haha.. what a rush??

By the way, I don't stay near to IMU..

Hence, I need at least 10 minutes walk to reach back..

with such a rush..

half running to my room back..

Get myself already in sweating mode..

Wash my face, refresh and there... ready to go..

Just by the time i walked out towards IMU,

I was really FULLY warmed out.. haha

(even there's a guy in the lift keep looking at me.. as the lift was actually quite full of ppl.. I can really feel the stare...

I guess he's looking at my red red face.. as I rush all the way

yet I'm just about to go for training.. lolz)

As I walked there,

They-the seniors and others had start running lo...

SK and I were hoping that there would be seniors waiting as well..

But then.. no one.. so sad la..

We arrived there around 6pm.. hehe

So, we decided to run and look for them..

(I was already half lost my energy)

They were kinda fast actually.. But since decided..

It was quite awhile till..

There...

we finally meet up with them at one of the rest station..

Guess they were all shocked for us..

haha..

asking how we found them..

That's sth to do with 6th sense.. lolz..

Due to the catching up,

I was already breathless reaching there...

trying to gasp for some air while rest..

But there isn't enough time!!

ended.. I'm sweating like I just had shower

and

lower abdominal pain..

(Still not sure what causes that.. probably will find out soon.. haha)

But honestly,

proud of SK and myself..

we managed to catch up with them..

We used to run as the last one in previous training..

haha..

However, SK live very near to IMU..

she probably don't feel the breathless I'm struggling..

She look just fine..

Yet..

I was in red face + pale look

due to lack of oxygen..

Then, our very dearly seniors who just finished their exam

decided to give us some "quiz"

which attach with some "exercise" as punishment..

Probably I was already need oxygen tank..

My mind and brain are both blank..

Hardly even concentrate hearing the question..

and yeah, it cause me stress la..

Exam coming soon..

yet I'm not even started anything..

However, no panic though..

Seniors are good..

They don't mean to induce stress..

Helping us only.. so good lea..

Haha.. Just that some seniors thought that

I looked 'emo+tired+ not really ok..'

haha..

You try to run and rush all the way

with 3 floor stairs X2 (go and back)

then run with all these overloaded energy seniors..

surely look pale la..

Overall,

Candy is smiling.. and being happy

now.. and if can, forever

By the way,

Candy is going back tomorrow..

First time ever with public bus..

Bought my ticket.. Transnasional-11am

Wish me a good journey ba..

Nervous + Interview = Disappointed

Hz...

That's how my day begin...

It's the very very first

Behavioural Science Interview

Basically, it's a practice and the only one...

so, I have to interview the patient

(Note: This is so-called stimulated patients

Means we actually given "actor/actress" who can act as patient

This including coughing, acting blax3

They are pro.. real pro wei...

They will increase the level of difficulties as time progress..

So, Sem 1 still ok la..

but will get more and more sooner...)

We'll have the real Interview...

It's like one of the important assessment.

I'll have to gather and ask question to the stimulated patient

(Note: Sarcastic huh?

I'll be conducting Interview by asking question yet

I'M NERVOUS LIKE CRAZY!!!)

I can feel my heart beat clearly without stethoscope

Haha...

Well, my patient having palpitation

and he felt breathless...

(:( I'm the last one to conduct interview in front of my PBL group members..

So, I'm super duper nervous.. Those guys ah.. not gentleman enough.. haha)

When he said he had palpitation,

I feel like telling him

"I know how you feel cause I'm breathless right now too"

haha.. but of course, I didn't

I get so so so so NERVOUS
that I speak really fast..

Even my facilitator said I speak very fast..

ended like I'm actually memorizing everything

Eish.. where got?

I don't even know what's in my head that moment!!!

I forgotten to ask some question as well..

which means it's not good!!!

And.. I dunno what had I said..

Candy ah candy..

I screwed my only practice...

with a disappointed result...

Only a stimulated patient and I'm already so nervous

Candy:

Communication Skills=0

eish... fail lo...

:(

Dear John

It's a sad movie..

yet a meaningful movie.

Dear John letter are known

as letter written to end a relationship..

in an unwilling way

I like the way the chemistry behind them..

The way that no matter how short that is yet sweet..

I like the way they wrote letter to each other..

The way they share the story of their days..

In this story,

they met in an unofficial way...

which caused me to miss someone...

In this story,

the romance started when they were together in few weeks..

which reminds me of the days I had with fun...

In this story,

the girl makes a bad decision but not a wrong one..

which caused me to relate back the past...

In this story,

when John said "Goodbye, Savannah"

while Savannah said "I'll see you soon, then"

which tells it's over...

no second chance..

no turning back.

When John decided to sells the coins collection of his dad,

he sells all together without separation except one...

He loves his dad a lot..

and he knows..

when you accept or let go..

it had to be everything in once...

It's not the ending I want..

Not a fairy tale story line..

yet it reflect what reality love story is...

Once you let it go,

it hardly come back...

Appreciate when someone's around...

Be happy when someone cares..

Don't let go when you aren't sure..

Don't give up when you haven't finish try..

cause you never want to regret..

I'm LATE!!

Recently..

Having some disorder in internal clock..

haha..

means my internal clock mistuned to other time zone...

As the result,

I took nap at afternoon..

ended hardly sleep at night till 2am...

(P/S: This photo really funny de lo...

At the side of the road somemore..

I wonder whether any drivers found that annoying

and press on the oil pedal and run across it.. lolz.. )

Hence,

due to this mistuned time

I was late for class yesterday (19 May).. haha

oversleep..

Result:

Skipped one lecturer and left only one..

lolz..

Candy ah candy..

Only 2 hours per day

and you can't attend that 2 hours ah?

Haha..

Thankfully SK called me.. or not..

I'll be sleeping so soundly.. haha

Rainny.. Sunny and Windy..

I can hear the thunder...

As though there's someone unhappy.. angry

and shouting for something happened..

Feel uneasy.. not safe..

Feel like something missing...

whenever the blue blue sky

turns to be grey in colour....

Slowly.. without noticing..

Drop by drop...

water falls down from the sky...

to wash away the dirt..

giving us a fresh air...

with the help of wind..

It's just like life..

Tears drop...

Each drop wash away the sadness...

We wide off the tears..

yet can't control ourselves from crying...

We tried to smile..

yet can't avoid ourselves from crying....

Cry..

There's nothing wrong to cry..

It's not something good..

but doesn't mean it's something bad..

They said..

cry as long as you want..

cry as hard as you wish...

Just make sure..

that you won't cry over the same matter again..

how many of us can guarantee this?

No matter how hard I cried

No matter how the tears wash away sadness..

Some of the pain..

Some of the wound..

doesn't end even though I cried more once...

It only end when I finally

letting it go..

When I let go...

there's some part deep inside won't let go..

Just don't feel of letting go..

That moment... was my last cry

For once and last one..

my tears drop again..

and washed away the pain...

giving myself a new start..

Just like how the sun appears

no matter how long the rain falls...

All I need to do

is just make sure..

I smile again after crying..

That's what matter most...

Through the window in my room...

I could see a peaceful view...

even a nice view of KLCC and KL Tower..

but when rain falls..

everything disappear behind the cloud..

leaving only white and grey sky..

with droplets of water..

It resemble my thought..

caused....

when I cried..

there's nothing left..

except what cause the tears...

No matter it's

Rainny.. Sunny or Windy..

I learn now..

that I should enjoy and appreciate

cause I finally realise

that letting it go

doesn't mean I won't think of it...

Still a part of my past..

that make what myself is today...

and what makes rainbow special