心痛

aahhhh...

My laptop felt down accidentally...

from a table...

and

broken the edge...

it's a prominent scar there dy lar..

心痛。。

心痛，难过。。。

what should I do now??

Though I know it's not on purpose,

but I seriously felt heart broken towards my laptop..

although it's not so grand laptop, 

it's a present that accompany me since I was out for study.

:(

hz...

心痛

laptop need doctor...

:(

P/S: that isn't my laptop btw

This isn't me~~

I'm so so so not in condition recently..

Never ever did all these to myself..

and 

now... the only choices left is just: "ADAPT"

I have never

tried so so hard..

yet own the equal result as others.

I have never

been in so much stress..

yet have to handle on my own.

I have never

need to worry for money that much..

yet still having conflict.

I have never

experience that much of burden..

yet I'm struggling to breathe!!

That tough, that challenging..

yet.. there's no turning back..

sometimes...

all i need is just a phrase,

"It's gonna be okay."

Not just a simple normal phrase,

I want it to be promising, and convincing...

Lots of things happen..

Lots of unexpected event..

Lots of heart breaking moment..

I guess...

before adapting..

I have to learn to be blind.. and accept..

Candy, arh candy..

bloggie arh bloggie...

study arh study...

all the heamatology, cardiovascular, respiratory and gastrointestinal system..

They are just beginning.. that scary..

I can't see my future dy lar!!!!!!