Turn to the other side

Friday reaching soon.. Nope.. Its just few more minutes..
Going back to my hometown again tomorrow.. Hope can have a real nice rest at home with warm care from family..

One of the American Computer Scientists, Alan Kay said that
"The best way to predict the future is to invent it."

I'm totally agreed with him.. Spending most of my time thinking of my future when i ended SAM isn't the best way for me.. The correct path should be taking the accurate choice..
Currently, i'm gonna apply for Manipal University, IMU and KSMU at Russia..
These are the 3 choice for me.. also the only 3 as i guess the only path available for me is just medicine..

Trial examination is just around the corner.. Time, again really flies... Going to end my Pre-U in 2 more months time... Such a short stressful course and yet i feel a bit sad to leave all my classmates...

Thinking back to all the activities we had together.. All the assessments we went through together.. All just remarkable memory..
Let's travel back to few weeks ago.. On the 3rd August 2009, Monday..
That's the big day for me.. The day that i had to wear a very formal attire to present my topic as one of the English assessment.. I was chosen as the first one to present on the very first day.. But, because i'm not well prepared, one of my classmates, Debbie exchange with me.. Thanks to her a lot!
In our presentation, we are group to 6 people.. The very lucky first group consist of Amrita, Andrew, Wong Wai Yin, Phang Jac Lynn, Debbie and of course.. myself
It wasn't the first time i present in front of the public but i was afraid.. nervous..
My topic of reasearch is about the Nuclear Technology about the usage and research being carried out few months ago by North Korea..
These presentation basically divided to 3 main section. Firstly, it would be a brief discription. Next, to the fun part which is question and answer session and lastly the discussion.
I've to thanks to my senior, Reena for training me when i was in Form 3 to be the Master of Ceremony for Leo activities before i was elected as the president..
The training is really beneficial to me although its a bit in a harsh way.. I still remember i was able to give my last speech as outgoing president without preparing my speech.. as all the leos are my beloved friends..
here's the photo of my group members for presentation.. I had lots of fun during this presentation.. will attach the picture next time.. got to go..

To be at home..

I am back.. to the scary lonely place..

The one week break for me seems to be a nice wonderful dreams that i wish i don't have to wake up forever..

However, I know dream doesn't last long.. and i still have to back to the reality life.. I guess i am homesick.. officially confirmed that homesick virus is back again to my mind..

I missed my warm house, my hilarious dad, wonderful mum and three very disturbing yet caring brothers. I thought taking pictures, smiling all days, avoiding the reality thinking could eventually help me to overcome this problem.. But i was wrong.

I was afraid to go back.. afraid to be back to the warm house.. afraid to be back to meet my family.. afraid to go back to be happy again..

Because i am afraid to be homesick again..

How could i study overseas? To be independent and strong for years.. Can i? I doubt..

Studying here is stressful for me..

I tried to keep myself busy.. Studying almost all the time.. Thinking of study whenever the mind started to think of home sweet home.. Pretending to smile all the time.. to be happy as i can..

and i have to continue.. preventing myself to step back again to the warm house?

I have to change my thoughts.. I ain't alone here.. Have to be strong.. to be more independent..

I guess dad and mum are giving me too much of love and i am spoilt.. to have anything i want? to be at home whenever break?

But.. i still wanna be at home.. a real of my very own house

Reaching the end

It's friday.. I used to be happy when its friday as weekends are the days to stay at home..
But not today..
In two more days, i'll be back to the place where i hardly find a smile on my face..

I guess.. i am homesick again.. The feeling of first time prepare to step in to the "new journey" of life returned to me again.. Feeling nervous, worried, scared, afraid.. and a desire to hide.. to run away from the truth..

One week break is just not enough for me.. Not even a month could satisfy me.. I realised i am greedy.. but i just couldn't help to have more..
Having bunch of homework with endless examination are just more than enough to take away the life i want..

However, my dad is back.. At home.. For this short break, i could at least have a long talk with my dad tonight.. He has been busy since last friday..
Well, tonight has a very very nice dinner.. Cause the chef are my lovely parents..
I wanted to help but my dad said i'm just disturbing and having my very own fun..

As the result, have to study the Physics on Albert Einstein. His great mind that discover light is made up of particles called photon which don't have mass and yet has momentum (Note: momentum is the product of mass and velocity).. Wonderful, isn't it?

Its actually just a simple dinner that i used to have.. But it just taste more delicious today..

Feel like gonna cry on this Sunday to go back to reality.. I'm reaching the end of my break.. and i wish i could turn back the time..

Wonderful moment are always short

Hmm.. Spent the whole day watching movies.. The Medical Drama, Dr. House.. Its just one of my favourite movie ever...

Like Dr. House characteristic.. Meaningful but not all the scientific terms used is understandable for me, right now..

Here comes the enjoyable moment.. Haha.. As usual, i would just love to disturb others..

So, when my mum cooks tonight, i was supposingly to give a hand to her.. But, i'm actually having fun in the kitchen.. talking, taking this and that, playing around.. even nearly mess up the kitchen.. Haha.. Its actualy because my mum is cooking my favourite dishes o.. All my favourite.

This includes.. my favourite soup..
Here it is..

This soup is one of my mum expert dishes..

Not everyone would be lucky enough to taste that..

Its feel like it has been years since the last time i able to sit down in the familiar big round table to eat a meal and at the same teasing each other especially my elder brother..

Well, not just this.. My mum had put all her effort in every mean as this soup need to be boiled for roughly about a day to taste nice..

Besides, the below picture will clearly shows how nice the meal.. its not plain rice oo..
My mum prepared the rice earlier.. I still remember i used to ask her to leave some rice for me as the breakfast for tomorrow before go to school.. or even as lunch as school..
Just love my mum's cooking a lot.
But.. there's no fish in this meal.. haha

Note: The one sitting there is actually someone who is so hungry and eating without waiting for us...

Well, i just hope my dad could arrive back earlier.. He promises me to treat me a meal.. and for sure, gonna get that from him but not just once..

Miss my dad..

Time pass really fast.. few more minutes reaching Tuesday.. Time really flies.. Wonderful moments are always too short to remember well

Travel back to few months ago...

My very first post for my blog..
I created this blog finally after my friends' influence to record every memory of my life..
Hopefully i would have the time to express my feeling and thinking at here.
Currently, I have spent almost more than 3 months for South Australian Matriculation programme (SAM). Or in other terms would be Self Abuse Matriculation (SAM)... This is eventually because i'm in the express march intake.. Which we probably travel almost near to speed of light..
I still remembered that since the first day i enrolled to this programme, the most frequent question i ever asked myself is just, "Why do i take SAM?"...
I always wonder how and where would i be if i didn't take SAM, didn't enter to Taylor's University College? It is just simply about the path not taken by me..
This few months of studying at Subang Jaya, i gained more experience.. a wider view to world.. At this few months, i have been rushing for assignment, projects and even have to burn midnight oil for my preparation to mid-term examination..
It isn't really enjoyable compared to now.. Facing stress.. homesick at the same time
Time really flies.. it is just a small part of my memory of life.. I wished i could make the time freeze to make a more remarkable memory for my mind.. But i just couldn't
The memory of my secondary school life is still so clear till i could easily forget on where and what am i doing.. The life with my friends are so far enjoyable compared to now.. Miss all of them.
On the other hand, after this few months i realised my classmates are now part of my college life.. New bonds of friendship is built among each other.. Having my one week break first.. Nicely and warmly stay at my very own house.. Although there are still lots of homework and assignment need to hand up, i feel comfortable at my home as "Home Sweet Home".. Gonna enjoy this holiday with my parents.. By next month, I'll be facing my trial examination.. and by the end of November, i'll end my Pre-U course.. At this moment, i suddenly realise i don't want the time to travel that fast.. i couldn't catch up the speed..