More than usual...

In low mood...

Moody mood switched on..

Hz.. wish just a button can switch it off

for ever and always!!

Even in dream also can't switch off sad mode..

haha..

Mummy, I miss you!!

Missing home now..

especially when eating alone..

T.T

Can I stay at home?

Just wanna be at home..

Mummy,

I don't like staying away from home..

Can I have a choice to pick??

Wanna call you every night de...

but you sometimes also very busy.

Wanna go back every weekends de..

but you will worry then wanna fetch me up. then I feel guilty..

Wanna tell you every details of my day.

but can't say a word when listen to your story..

Wanna tell you "I miss home"..

but afraid you'll worry..

Wanna your comfort when I cry missing home..

but don't want you to worry..

Wanna tell you I can't sleep missing home..

but just can't say..

Daddy.. Miss you too..

You always make me smile

with all the joke and tease..

but I know actually you realise the sadness in my eyes..

I wanna go home...

Don't want lonely dinner..

T.T

3 Dishes Candy Must Eat..

As the title said..

Three..

Must eat food..

haha..

By Candy's Law..

Alright..

It's the 3 Must Eat Food

whenever I go back

to my hometown

By the way,

these food only found

or only nice

if eaten at Segamat

specifically: My house... ^^

and My mum is the one

with secret recipe

(The name is created by me)

First:

Golden Mushroom Egg

Haha..

This only nice if it's my mum cook...

and it's perfect with the other 2 dishes

(although i just eat the egg only.. not mushroom.. haha)

2nd:

Soup of Nuts

(I simply name de.. hahaha)

It's my very very favourite!!!!

I love it.. more like I crazy of it...

hahaha..

And it's nice if you boil it with slow cooker

from morning..till night

and the nuts and soup

is just way way perfect..

Lastly...

This.. this this...

only my mum cook is nice

the other restaurant can hardly compare la..

Rice of colacasia

Mum cook the best...

These three dishes..

can satisfy me like for days..

Just these photos..

are just enough to make me hungry..

and miss home..

Mum, hungry ah..

To be at home..

I am back.. to the scary lonely place..

The one week break for me seems to be a nice wonderful dreams that i wish i don't have to wake up forever..

However, I know dream doesn't last long.. and i still have to back to the reality life.. I guess i am homesick.. officially confirmed that homesick virus is back again to my mind..

I missed my warm house, my hilarious dad, wonderful mum and three very disturbing yet caring brothers. I thought taking pictures, smiling all days, avoiding the reality thinking could eventually help me to overcome this problem.. But i was wrong.

I was afraid to go back.. afraid to be back to the warm house.. afraid to be back to meet my family.. afraid to go back to be happy again..

Because i am afraid to be homesick again..

How could i study overseas? To be independent and strong for years.. Can i? I doubt..

Studying here is stressful for me..

I tried to keep myself busy.. Studying almost all the time.. Thinking of study whenever the mind started to think of home sweet home.. Pretending to smile all the time.. to be happy as i can..

and i have to continue.. preventing myself to step back again to the warm house?

I have to change my thoughts.. I ain't alone here.. Have to be strong.. to be more independent..

I guess dad and mum are giving me too much of love and i am spoilt.. to have anything i want? to be at home whenever break?

But.. i still wanna be at home.. a real of my very own house