我累了。。真的累了

真的。。真的。。

很讨厌伤心的我。。

很不喜欢会掉眼泪的我。。

我真的真的很想开开心心的。。

想每天都是那爱笑的我。。

我怎么了？

不是说好了吗？

不会再为那件事伤心吗？

不是掉了泪就好了吗？

怎么了？

我怎么了？！谁能告诉我？

让这眼泪停好吗？

让他停。。停好吗？

不想不想。。

真的不想再为那件事哭。。

我累了。。

真的累了。。。

为什么？

为什么？？

伤得那么深，痛了，哭了。。

为什么, 我还是能原谅你？

为什么每当我说，“我会忘了。。我会没事。。” 你就让我再一次伤心？

为什么？

为什么就是你？

为什么我要伤心？

那不值得。。不值得！

我听到了吗？醒一醒！！

回到家了。。好好养伤。。

闷在心里很难受。。

但每当我一想起，就哭了。。都说不出了。

不想让家人担心。。说不出。

能不能就忘了一切？

能不能就让我装开心？

也许。。只有在装开心时，我才能忘了

忘了。。那些难过的事。

帮帮我，好吗？

我累了。。真的累了。。

让我就一次。。逃跑吧。

躲避是我唯一能办到的。。。

或许，放弃。。就是唯一的犯法。

放开手。。就是唯一快乐的路。

但，为什么？为什么？为什么眼泪还是流下来了？

我。。是那么的相信童话故事的。。

现在的我，很难再相信了。。。

但，能怪谁呢？

这都是我做的决定。。都是我选择。。。

或许，在未来的一天。。。我会快乐的说

“谢谢你。。让我成长了。。也很感谢有你在我生命里”

但是，现在的我。。。只想说

“让我一个人静一静吧。。。”

Something happened....

Something has changed...

yet I still can't adapt...

I can't accept the truth yet.

Give me some time...

I promise, I won't cause trouble...

Give me some time...

Cause I doesn't want this to end this way

Bloggy,

I'll be gone for awhile..

I need time to heal...

When I'm ready, I'll post something nice..

But, right now...

Let me be invisible first..

I wish.. I could turn back the time

Forgive me, please...

Candy, 那不值得。。

真的不值得。。。

放弃吧。。就放弃吧

就忘了吧。

但是，我就是舍不得。。就是舍不得！

A fairytale day

Can you feel the magic in the air??

Yesterday was a special day...

cause

it's a fairytale day

Exam over..

Holiday is here...

Haha..

Say "NO" to books+ notes

Hahaha...

Warning: It's gonna be a long post

Firstly, Wednesday night sleep over Ing.C's house

Sleepover^^

4 of us including her

sleeping on a queen size bed

haha..

Watch movie together..

waiting for our turn to use bathroom..=.=

Dinner together..

Nice^^

Here's the main part..

Thursday where magic works...

breakfast:

Next:

To Sunway Pyramid

For Ice Skating!!!

It was really really fun!

Firstly, i was like "I can't even stand properly"

Then "I can't let go my hand off the side"

Lastly,

Two is better than one, we hold hands

and support each other

(Note: go ice skating with friends is really fun.. )

and we felt down quite a number of time

haha.. but that's what friends do.. support

and.. I laugh non-stop when fall down.. haha

It was just way too fun and funny

Finally, around 3pm

we have to end the magic.. as that's the time limit

due to skating competition on 24/06

We went to have our lunch first

at Asian Avenue inside

hehe.. skating need energy.. lots

After eating,

we walked around..

then saw Full House

out of sudden,

we ended taking photo every mirror..

haha..

and me, proudly to say.. I'm the photographer^^

Memorable moments

with unforgettable experience

under the magic in the air

to create a fairytale day.

The secret is..

my friends.. ^^

Nervous...

PANIC..

Exam in few hours time...

How to sleep?

Finish study and remember are totally 2 different thing!!

who can cool me down now?

I like study nothing only..

Cham lo..

I'm so so so dead!!!

Chill chill..

Start memorizing..

:(

Try my very best lo..

Study.. ya..

STUDY...

I know...

STUDYING

haha.. Just finished embryonic chapter..

Brainny: Supper loaded!!

"Internal traffic jam"

super complicated growth process

See see.. how complicated human is.. haha

lolz.. sot liao..

overstudy.. haha

TUESDAY 22/06- BS Interview

WEDNESDAY 23/06- Summative Exam

WEDNESDAY, 4.00pm - FUN TIME!!!

haha.. let's count down..

(note: not for exam la.. for the end of exam)

Note: Can I just burn everything and drink it like what Chinese pray and go for exam remembering everything??

TIME FOR PANIC!!!

PANIC ATTACK!!!

GO.. run around...

RUN FOR LIFE!!!

STRESS la.. Exam in 2DAYS time..

AH... GO BANG THE HEAD TO THE WALL

I'm blessed

Aw... My very very good elder brother..

I had a really really toothache this evening..

And hasn't been eating since morning..

Can't even talk nicely when chat with my mum over the phone...

As I'm having sort of days without lecture,

my mum suggest that I should go back...

But then it was around 6pm already...

So, i thought I should buy the bus ticket tomorrow...

Then, my dad talked to me..

Saying he'll arrange someone to fetch me back..

At that moment, I nearly cry out..

I'm so so touched..

Just of a phrase I said "My tooth is aching so terrible"

and three of my angels busy around..

Just to let me feel the comfort to be at home..

Aw... I'm so touched..

And my elder brother, he just said..

"She's my only sister.. Of course I go and fetch her."

I heard that from my mum.. I'm so so speechless..

I'm already feel sorry for letting him drive all way up to fetch me

and then it's so late somemore...

all he did was just..

give me a call and said "Your tooth pain ah?"

A word "yes".. is what he need to drive 3 hours up to fetch me

and then another 3 hours back...

How could you do these?

Thanks.. thanks..

People said the two angels sent by God is our parents..

Some may only have one.. some may not have...

Some may found later in life...

But me..

I'm blessed.. with 3 angels since the day I arrived to Earth..

I can never find anyone who treat me better than you all...

Thanks.. thanks..

How could I hold my tears after everything you all done?

Thanks.. for everything

Not really wisdom of wisdom teeth

Stupid wisdom teeth..

he finally found his way to pop out...

why now? why today?

It's so so so painful

that I can't even close my jaws..

my enamel is literally enlarge and swollen up..

I dunno what going on.. not a dentist

As the result,

I wasted my lunch and

the aunty gave me a look for not finishing..

At that very moment,

my tears nearly fall down..

It's not that I don't want to eat..

I tried.. I really tried..

I even tried to swallow without chewing..

Ended hurt my throat

and undigested lunch around my throat..

Today's class is longest among whole semester..

also the last day for class..

I can even hardly smile..

cause the entire jaw is like stiff.. u can hardly move..

It's a very very tough day to pass..

especially with empty stomach..

and uncloseable jaws..

One of my batchmate said

"Wisdom teeth grow when you're in love.. then he congrates me=.="

One of my friend said

"Wisdom teeth grow shows u finally reach your wisdom =.="

And congrates me again..

For me,

Say "NO" to wisdom teeth..

It's painful..T.T

The hug

Before I leave...

I turned around to look at you once again...

A hug with you is so precious..

I node my head down to your shoulder...

Breathe in deeply.. closing my eyes..

Trying to make the time stop.. even just for a second..

Is enough, satisfying..

When you left,

I tried to control the tears..

By smiling and said "We'll meet soon, right?"

Keep the faith inside...

cause the believe is the one I rise smiling every day..

When I was alone..

I closed my eyes.. taking a breathe in deeply..

I miss you so so much..

that I can actually feel your hug..

I can smell the motherly odour from you...

When I was sad.. hurt..

I closed my eyes.. emptied my mind..

I miss you so so much..

that I can actually hear you saying "It's okay."

When I was happy..

I smiled and try to close my eyes again..

This time I miss you so so much..

But all I do is just

pick up the phone and call you..

Just to let you know... let you smile as well...

Nothing can be compare to my family..

The one and only that protect you endlessly...

Cool.. haha

Human needs break...

Hence, Candy need a break too..

haha.. break away from study awhile...

Due to the whole study chapter

on special senses (ear,eye,tongue and nose)

Note: Super loaded with medical term...

Isn't easy to fix and squeeze everything in few hours..

So, to use the break time wisely...

I discover something cool..

Haha..

Some unusual building

which I think...

It's really cool!!

The Crooked House (Sopot, Poland)

Ferdinand Cheval Palace a.k.a Ideal Palace (France)

Kansas City Public Library (Missouri, United States)

(Pretty sure ppl won't question whether it's library or not.. haha)

Hang Nga Guesthouse a.k.a Crazy House (Vietnam)

Dancing Building (Prague, Czech Republic)

Kettle House (Texas, United States)

Mind House (Barcelona, Spain)

(Oh.. artistic enough!!)

Upside Down House, Poland

Conch Shell House, Mujeres, Mexico

˙˙˙uʍop ǝpısdn ʇnoqɐ ןןɐ s,ʇı

Oh.. lovely one

Ripley’s Building (Niagara Falls, Ontario, Canada)

I love to watch Ripley's believe it or not... haha..

Alright.. that's all...

Advice for future architect:

Go crazy!! haha.. be remarkable

You saw me...

Nope.. You don't..

I'm invisible.. You can't see me...

I'm not here.. not there..

But I see you...

Sot liao.. haha..

What will happen when I vanish one day??

Cause I know..

That's the day I'll find those who cares..

More than usual...

In low mood...

Moody mood switched on..

Hz.. wish just a button can switch it off

for ever and always!!

Even in dream also can't switch off sad mode..

haha..

Mummy, I miss you!!

Missing home now..

especially when eating alone..

T.T

Can I stay at home?

Just wanna be at home..

Mummy,

I don't like staying away from home..

Can I have a choice to pick??

Wanna call you every night de...

but you sometimes also very busy.

Wanna go back every weekends de..

but you will worry then wanna fetch me up. then I feel guilty..

Wanna tell you every details of my day.

but can't say a word when listen to your story..

Wanna tell you "I miss home"..

but afraid you'll worry..

Wanna your comfort when I cry missing home..

but don't want you to worry..

Wanna tell you I can't sleep missing home..

but just can't say..

Daddy.. Miss you too..

You always make me smile

with all the joke and tease..

but I know actually you realise the sadness in my eyes..

I wanna go home...

Don't want lonely dinner..

T.T

C = Candy?? or Clumsy??

Yesterday was Sunday...

Sun-day..

means supposingly be the day to relax and have fun..

Yet,

I'm stucked with a bunch and tons of paper

to study+memorize??

not forgetting the heavy dictionary-like book.

So.. due to the boring words about nervous system...

I decided to clean my room..

(Note: I clean my room every week out of bored.. haha)

then I really tak tahan the dirt at living room

As the result,

I mop the house..

(super dirty.. dunno how to describe.. like didn't mop for ages.. that's why I have sandals for indoor)

The fact is...

it takes energy..

resulted in sweaty..

At the end after shower,

I realised my hand has a 'scratch'

I thought it's just a scratch although it's quite painful..

I put on a plaster...

By next morning,

it becomes a big wound!!

I can't really write properly during my class this morning..

cause it at the bend of ur finger

(Note: it isn't bleeding.. it's my reddish painful wound..

kinda deep.. wonder what I did too)

I'm not overstress to torture myself..

Exam is around the corner and I hurt my fingers.

Right hand some more..

(My domain hand is right hand)

Now,

it takes time for me to

write, brush teeth even wash a dish!!

and i need both hand to sms too.. =.=

everything need the right hand..

left hand kinda lagging.. haha

Good la, Candy..

Clean the living room but ended hurt yourself..

C=Candy=Clumsy...

(Always hurt my legs and arm but just scratch.. unlike this one)

Should consider my future career carefully..

doc can't be clumsy..

haha

Study.. study... relax la....

Candy ah candy...

17 days ahead to semester exam lo..

Still playing around ah?

haha..

Candy: Yup.. stress hormone isn't applied to me yet..

Lolz...

Started my revision yesterday..

I found out that..

How can I finish all these??

Memorize and digest in these 18 days time??

Not including the exercise and practice??

wah..

Complied for Biochemistry..

Anatomy and Physiology...

not forgetting Behavioral Science..

2 hours lecture per day sounds fun..

but when exam is here, it's no longer nice..

Self study mostly =(

(Note: nice lea... but doesn't increase my curiosity to read.. haha)

If all that is Maths papers..

I wouldn't be asking these question...

Have to stop thinking of Mr. Maths...

Only Semester 1..

can't imagine my semester 2..

(Note: the toughest Sem exam in all with highest probability to fail...cham..)

Time to pray...

cause i'm having problem in concentrating...

while study...

relax awhile.. watch NBA.. play games...

all the knowledge is unload by the end.. haha..

Time to be serious lo..

Candy.. study ah...

Fun Facts... Amazing!!

Camouflage..

Thinking about Chameleon Lizards??

Ah.. there're others...

What makes them so amazing??

Nothing big deal huh?

Here's one gonna make you say..

"WOW"

Recently, scientist found out

that cuttlefish can camouflage

in a very interesting way...

It's Nature's master of disguise..

Changing skin pattern

(That's what I mean about the first amazing)

and texture according to surrounding..

(Note: Can see ah?? That's what amazing.. haha.. artistic)

But..

Attention!!

Cuttlefish is colour-blind!!!

Somehow..

they able to camouflage for

50 millions years!!

That's what amazing..

It's amazing

how colour-blind differentiate colours..

It's amazing

how Ludvig van Beethoven create songs..

despite of being deaf

Amazing how he appreciate songs...

Appreciate every special senses!!