Thursday, November 26, 2009
The Last one and Only one...
I have officially ended my college's life!!!
No longer need to..
stay up late to study for test, examination or assignments
skipped lunch or dinner to fight for more time
wake up early and attend class till 4p.m.
force myself to study almost everyday
loaded with past year papers and exercises
stay in library almost all the time for study
pay attention in class although sleepy
strain myself over the exhausted feeling
afraid of my score, my marks and whether I'm doing the correct path or not
keeping up myself to the speed of light
making sure all the important dates of study and passing up
Alright.. good bye to all of that!!!
Yesterday, I wrote out my voice over what my thoughts to all my classmates but I don't dare to show it in public for them to know..
Here it is..:
The first day I step into college’s life was hard and scary although I enroll in with my high school classmates.
The first classmate that I get to know is Ai Ling and next is Khai Ling.
My heart was beating very fast when I was first in a class with other new students. I was afraid, with all assignment and projects need to be done.
I could hardly breathe in when I was fully loaded with new challenge after a long break holiday.
I could hardly sleep when assignment and study are both up to my head.
I could hardly smile when my high school classmate leave me here and next is Ai Ling.. I never told both of you, but I was sad that time being alone.
I could hardly eat when exam is around the corner.
I could hardly enjoy the course when there’s nothing to be happy.
However, that’s all in the past!!
Now, I am glad to be a part of E2, happy to know each of my classmates. Gonna miss all of you after SAM..
Here’s some of my opinion when I firstly met and get to know you all..
P/S: I start randomly.. ^.^
Khai Ling
I don’t really know you when I first met you. I do misunderstand you few times at first for your being BUT when I get to know you, I know you’re a great leader with full of responsibility. Besides, this girl has high twisting mind for Physics.
Thanks for all your help and support throughout this whole course.
Keep in touch cause I don’t want to lose such a good friends.. I can’t afford.
Christina, Seow Chuieng
The very first time I met you, the only sentence that cross my mind is “Wow! She’s really pretty and beautiful.”
You remind me of my old friend who is just like you.. Haha..
I have to admit that when I first get to know you, you seem to be in trouble almost all your time till I thought Khai Ling was your guardian to solve everything. Haha.. Pls don’t mind.
After getting to know you, I can share almost everything with you. Thanks to you too for the help and support you gave throughout these whole messes that I went through. I can’t afford to forget you, so please keep in touch as well.
Ai Ling
Well, we were first really close till we had some arguments..
But I have to say that you know me well and glad to have you around either as roommate or classmates. And the most important is, you really have to relax when examination arrive. You make me out of my nerves as well when you start to stress and I don’t really control temper well.. haha.. And, you’re really good in Chemistry and Biology especially with your super hardworking effort is undeniable.
Brinda
I had such a wonderful time with you and getting to meet you when we met during JPA interview but you don’t seem to know me.. That’s sad..
I have to say you’re really Biology lover which is totally opposite to me.. Haha..
Wish you all the best for your marine biology career in future. You’re really good in Biology and English which are both subjects that I never ever wish to step in further.
Harkiran
You’re just always laughing and I know you’re really someone who understand and good listener. Glad to know you and have you around during Bio lab.
Debbie, Hao Yi, Jac and Sarah
All I can describe is.. They just laugh almost all the time. That’s really something that I hope I could. Debbie is just cute and full of energy all the time by being herself. Hao Yi is just someone with good self-confidence and dress up well. Jac laugh almost all the time and being supportive all the time. Sarah may sometimes get to be a little bit quiet but she is someone who always ready to back you up!
Mathias
Well, really glad to know you here although we’re from the same hometown. Hope to hear from you in future as a surgeon.. Brain surgeon? I don’t really know you well but I’m sure you always help people and you have almost everything in your pencil case because every time I asked for stationery stuff like scissors, you totally have them.
Ling Chuing
Glad to know you further in the Manipal trip and I could see how much you like ice skating…
Kar Ying and Natalie
Well… Other than being helpful, I can only say that they have really good sense in talking… haha… Please don’t misunderstanding… It’s just that I enjoy talking with you all as it seems to be comforting and relaxing.
Hwee Mien and Wai Yin
Both of you have really good talking skills. And of course, high intelligence in study and undeniable will be great successful person in future. Thanks again for all your help when I’m in trouble (I guess both of you know what I mean).
Wen Zhee
You’re really helpful and kind. I was surprised on what you wrote in my year book. It seems like you have known me for years! Thanks for all the words and salute for your professional photographing and video skills. Glad to have you as leader in Moral group.
Ter Wei, Turkey
I don’t really understand Turkey language but could not deny that you have good memory which will be helpful for you, doctor. You are really someone who can laugh and smile almost all the time with no worries AT ALL. Be a great doctor and please do save life in future…
Andrew
You have really high twist and IQ which give me an impression as future physicist. Your great ability in physics is totally outstanding. I know you do compete mark with me in physics, but you have to know that you really have high understanding in physics and more else. You’ll be success in future with your outstanding brain.
Wai Kit
I knew you’re really hardworking when I saw you started to do Maths past year paper before anyone else. Besides, you asked questions when you don’t understand and that’s totally prove your effort in study. Don’t have to ask you work harder but I’m sure you’re success man in few years to come.
Deepen
Well, I started to get to know you when we’re in a group for Mathematics.
As a reply for what you wrote in my year book,
If I really do open a shop called “Fancy Candy”, I’ll definitely invite you as special guest for opening ceremony. Haha…
From what I know, you seems to be more mature than anyone of us… Good presentation in physics just like an expert.
The others who not listed
I don’t really get to know you all but I am glad to have you all in E2..
Nice to meet all of you and please please keep in touch. Hope and wish to meet you all in the future one days…
Maybe later of today or tomorrow.. who knows when i'll change my mind..
No longer need to..
stay up late to study for test, examination or assignments
skipped lunch or dinner to fight for more time
wake up early and attend class till 4p.m.
force myself to study almost everyday
loaded with past year papers and exercises
stay in library almost all the time for study
pay attention in class although sleepy
strain myself over the exhausted feeling
afraid of my score, my marks and whether I'm doing the correct path or not
keeping up myself to the speed of light
making sure all the important dates of study and passing up
Alright.. good bye to all of that!!!
Yesterday, I wrote out my voice over what my thoughts to all my classmates but I don't dare to show it in public for them to know..
Here it is..:
The first day I step into college’s life was hard and scary although I enroll in with my high school classmates.
The first classmate that I get to know is Ai Ling and next is Khai Ling.
My heart was beating very fast when I was first in a class with other new students. I was afraid, with all assignment and projects need to be done.
I could hardly breathe in when I was fully loaded with new challenge after a long break holiday.
I could hardly sleep when assignment and study are both up to my head.
I could hardly smile when my high school classmate leave me here and next is Ai Ling.. I never told both of you, but I was sad that time being alone.
I could hardly eat when exam is around the corner.
I could hardly enjoy the course when there’s nothing to be happy.
However, that’s all in the past!!
Now, I am glad to be a part of E2, happy to know each of my classmates. Gonna miss all of you after SAM..
Here’s some of my opinion when I firstly met and get to know you all..
P/S: I start randomly.. ^.^
Khai Ling
I don’t really know you when I first met you. I do misunderstand you few times at first for your being BUT when I get to know you, I know you’re a great leader with full of responsibility. Besides, this girl has high twisting mind for Physics.
Thanks for all your help and support throughout this whole course.
Keep in touch cause I don’t want to lose such a good friends.. I can’t afford.
Christina, Seow Chuieng
The very first time I met you, the only sentence that cross my mind is “Wow! She’s really pretty and beautiful.”
You remind me of my old friend who is just like you.. Haha..
I have to admit that when I first get to know you, you seem to be in trouble almost all your time till I thought Khai Ling was your guardian to solve everything. Haha.. Pls don’t mind.
After getting to know you, I can share almost everything with you. Thanks to you too for the help and support you gave throughout these whole messes that I went through. I can’t afford to forget you, so please keep in touch as well.
Ai Ling
Well, we were first really close till we had some arguments..
But I have to say that you know me well and glad to have you around either as roommate or classmates. And the most important is, you really have to relax when examination arrive. You make me out of my nerves as well when you start to stress and I don’t really control temper well.. haha.. And, you’re really good in Chemistry and Biology especially with your super hardworking effort is undeniable.
Brinda
I had such a wonderful time with you and getting to meet you when we met during JPA interview but you don’t seem to know me.. That’s sad..
I have to say you’re really Biology lover which is totally opposite to me.. Haha..
Wish you all the best for your marine biology career in future. You’re really good in Biology and English which are both subjects that I never ever wish to step in further.
Harkiran
You’re just always laughing and I know you’re really someone who understand and good listener. Glad to know you and have you around during Bio lab.
Debbie, Hao Yi, Jac and Sarah
All I can describe is.. They just laugh almost all the time. That’s really something that I hope I could. Debbie is just cute and full of energy all the time by being herself. Hao Yi is just someone with good self-confidence and dress up well. Jac laugh almost all the time and being supportive all the time. Sarah may sometimes get to be a little bit quiet but she is someone who always ready to back you up!
Mathias
Well, really glad to know you here although we’re from the same hometown. Hope to hear from you in future as a surgeon.. Brain surgeon? I don’t really know you well but I’m sure you always help people and you have almost everything in your pencil case because every time I asked for stationery stuff like scissors, you totally have them.
Ling Chuing
Glad to know you further in the Manipal trip and I could see how much you like ice skating…
Kar Ying and Natalie
Well… Other than being helpful, I can only say that they have really good sense in talking… haha… Please don’t misunderstanding… It’s just that I enjoy talking with you all as it seems to be comforting and relaxing.
Hwee Mien and Wai Yin
Both of you have really good talking skills. And of course, high intelligence in study and undeniable will be great successful person in future. Thanks again for all your help when I’m in trouble (I guess both of you know what I mean).
Wen Zhee
You’re really helpful and kind. I was surprised on what you wrote in my year book. It seems like you have known me for years! Thanks for all the words and salute for your professional photographing and video skills. Glad to have you as leader in Moral group.
Ter Wei, Turkey
I don’t really understand Turkey language but could not deny that you have good memory which will be helpful for you, doctor. You are really someone who can laugh and smile almost all the time with no worries AT ALL. Be a great doctor and please do save life in future…
Andrew
You have really high twist and IQ which give me an impression as future physicist. Your great ability in physics is totally outstanding. I know you do compete mark with me in physics, but you have to know that you really have high understanding in physics and more else. You’ll be success in future with your outstanding brain.
Wai Kit
I knew you’re really hardworking when I saw you started to do Maths past year paper before anyone else. Besides, you asked questions when you don’t understand and that’s totally prove your effort in study. Don’t have to ask you work harder but I’m sure you’re success man in few years to come.
Deepen
Well, I started to get to know you when we’re in a group for Mathematics.
As a reply for what you wrote in my year book,
If I really do open a shop called “Fancy Candy”, I’ll definitely invite you as special guest for opening ceremony. Haha…
From what I know, you seems to be more mature than anyone of us… Good presentation in physics just like an expert.
The others who not listed
I don’t really get to know you all but I am glad to have you all in E2..
Nice to meet all of you and please please keep in touch. Hope and wish to meet you all in the future one days…
Maybe later of today or tomorrow.. who knows when i'll change my mind..
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
The End
Today is the last day of college schooling..
Well, tomorrow is going to be the Moral examination.. which means tomorrow will be the last one hour at Taylor's College University..
The last one.. The last step into the college life again..
Well, today is the last day of Moral class..
I firstly thought it's gonna be boring..
This is because early morning, we'll have the test again.. The last third quiz..
Next, move on to the next reason which the lecturer told us that the whole day will mean for the assignment on recycle stuff.. Well, "waste of time" comes to my mind within a second..
However... The big twist of today..
I do enjoy this last lesson..
The time that my entire group spending time to twist our mind to think for the idea.
Surprisingly, there are few of the guys really not grown up as the using the newspaper to fold so-called aeroplane and "flying all around"..
Haha.. But it was fun though...
Then.. we came out with the plan of doing the Big Mother Earth using newspaper..
Unbelievable that I do really enjoy the whole process.. basically I realized I'm within them..
I do and follow the orders.. although they asked me to buy drinks.. as I'm playing phone game that time..
We almost run out of time but.. I do help up at the last critical moment.. Haha.. That's more important..
And our lovely slogan "Save our Mother Earth".. beautifully design.. haha
As we learnt before from Old Testament in Christian Bible which states the God created the Earth in 6 days..
But, Mosquito, Turkey and me.. We actually take few hours to build and create the Earth using newspaper.. Haha.. Just a joke..
It is fun and enjoyable to do all kind of crazy stuff.. I do enjoy and proud of our products as it stands out among all!
Proud to be within E2.. classmates forever..Although we may not meet again so frequently, I'm glad to meet them. There could be some misundertands happens, I may know their true colours of their life again, I may realize the real world.. I may know they don't mean to be the real friends.. BUT they do surprise me.. Forgive everything but I'm going to note down all special moments..
Well, tomorrow is going to be the Moral examination.. which means tomorrow will be the last one hour at Taylor's College University..
The last one.. The last step into the college life again..
Well, today is the last day of Moral class..
I firstly thought it's gonna be boring..
This is because early morning, we'll have the test again.. The last third quiz..
Next, move on to the next reason which the lecturer told us that the whole day will mean for the assignment on recycle stuff.. Well, "waste of time" comes to my mind within a second..
However... The big twist of today..
I do enjoy this last lesson..
The time that my entire group spending time to twist our mind to think for the idea.
Surprisingly, there are few of the guys really not grown up as the using the newspaper to fold so-called aeroplane and "flying all around"..
Haha.. But it was fun though...
Then.. we came out with the plan of doing the Big Mother Earth using newspaper..
Unbelievable that I do really enjoy the whole process.. basically I realized I'm within them..
I do and follow the orders.. although they asked me to buy drinks.. as I'm playing phone game that time..
We almost run out of time but.. I do help up at the last critical moment.. Haha.. That's more important..
And our lovely slogan "Save our Mother Earth".. beautifully design.. haha
As we learnt before from Old Testament in Christian Bible which states the God created the Earth in 6 days..
But, Mosquito, Turkey and me.. We actually take few hours to build and create the Earth using newspaper.. Haha.. Just a joke..
It is fun and enjoyable to do all kind of crazy stuff.. I do enjoy and proud of our products as it stands out among all!
Proud to be within E2.. classmates forever..Although we may not meet again so frequently, I'm glad to meet them. There could be some misundertands happens, I may know their true colours of their life again, I may realize the real world.. I may know they don't mean to be the real friends.. BUT they do surprise me.. Forgive everything but I'm going to note down all special moments..
Sunday, November 15, 2009
To be home or not...
Arrived back to my lovely hometown yesterday around 12a.m.
Was a tired journey as my brother has to look over his bus before fetching me.. till now, still not yet meet my daddy.. The one of all who i wished to meet almost all the time.
The whole day is just perfect for me.. Reading Twilight by Stephenie Meyer..
Totally in love with Edward Cullens character and the way the writer express.. Amazing, interesting and in details which is the story that i would love to spend my free time with..
It's totally makes me addicted to the story.. The way she wrote has brought me into the story itself.. with a bit imagination.. Wonderful! Just that i have no idea how the real Edward should look like.. Haha
Till dinner time arrived.. This is the problem with my family.. The only problem which makes me think that being apart from family is something peace and needed.
Here it is.. My elder bro help my dad in business since he's in secondary school. Right now, he can be said as one of the important main bos in the company which play lots of main role.
However, he's just 21.. so young to take in all the burden.. Isn't it..
It's just unbelievable because at his age, the others are studying or even trying to own their very own first car.. But look at him.. he has his bus driving license.. Busy with everything like a successful young businessman that we all see in the movie.. The one that makes all girls dream to meet as prince in their life.
But life is not always perfect. There is a big pressure and stress behind all these burden.. Well, basically that my bro is a bit bad tempered but he actually care a lot especially me as his sister and his lovely girl friend as well..
The thing i dislike of a basic family is...
I guess all family have argument.. they argue in the tone which makes you annoyed.. makes you hurt and sad..
Mum and bro will never had a good point of view together.. They had this time argueing about job. This is what that makes me wanna ran back to Subang.
I dislike the way they argue although it always ended peacefully..
Not even when my dad and mum argue
I really and utterly dislike that.. I feel sad.. fell depress that i feel like wanna hide away from all these..
I don't really want this type of arguments.. It makes me think that having business in family isn't something. This is also one of the reason that I would never step into business career or start my own business.. I don't want to have all the complication that makes everything miserable.
The only reason i feel depress when i'm studying further is that i feel the cost of my study is a burden for my family especially when my parents argue on business.
I felt i'm the family burden.. I caused trouble in money.. I am the reason they argue so that could earn more money.
I don't want that to happen because of me.. not me.
That's also the main reason i wanna earn lots of money in future and able to support either one of my younger bro in their study future..
I hope I could..
I hope I would..
I hope..
Was a tired journey as my brother has to look over his bus before fetching me.. till now, still not yet meet my daddy.. The one of all who i wished to meet almost all the time.
The whole day is just perfect for me.. Reading Twilight by Stephenie Meyer..
Totally in love with Edward Cullens character and the way the writer express.. Amazing, interesting and in details which is the story that i would love to spend my free time with..
It's totally makes me addicted to the story.. The way she wrote has brought me into the story itself.. with a bit imagination.. Wonderful! Just that i have no idea how the real Edward should look like.. Haha
Till dinner time arrived.. This is the problem with my family.. The only problem which makes me think that being apart from family is something peace and needed.
Here it is.. My elder bro help my dad in business since he's in secondary school. Right now, he can be said as one of the important main bos in the company which play lots of main role.
However, he's just 21.. so young to take in all the burden.. Isn't it..
It's just unbelievable because at his age, the others are studying or even trying to own their very own first car.. But look at him.. he has his bus driving license.. Busy with everything like a successful young businessman that we all see in the movie.. The one that makes all girls dream to meet as prince in their life.
But life is not always perfect. There is a big pressure and stress behind all these burden.. Well, basically that my bro is a bit bad tempered but he actually care a lot especially me as his sister and his lovely girl friend as well..
The thing i dislike of a basic family is...
I guess all family have argument.. they argue in the tone which makes you annoyed.. makes you hurt and sad..
Mum and bro will never had a good point of view together.. They had this time argueing about job. This is what that makes me wanna ran back to Subang.
I dislike the way they argue although it always ended peacefully..
Not even when my dad and mum argue
I really and utterly dislike that.. I feel sad.. fell depress that i feel like wanna hide away from all these..
I don't really want this type of arguments.. It makes me think that having business in family isn't something. This is also one of the reason that I would never step into business career or start my own business.. I don't want to have all the complication that makes everything miserable.
The only reason i feel depress when i'm studying further is that i feel the cost of my study is a burden for my family especially when my parents argue on business.
I felt i'm the family burden.. I caused trouble in money.. I am the reason they argue so that could earn more money.
I don't want that to happen because of me.. not me.
That's also the main reason i wanna earn lots of money in future and able to support either one of my younger bro in their study future..
I hope I could..
I hope I would..
I hope..
Thursday, November 12, 2009
I can't afford
This year is really not a very good year for me..
The first thing ever happened to me during this very first year is the lost of my beloved handphone.. Can be considered as my very first own handphone that daddy bought for me..
I can't blame anyone that I lost it.. It just happened because of my careless..
Still remember it happen after Chinese New Year. Well, I went out with my friends to a mini fun fair to have fun. The most enjoyable moment is when i able to drive the what-so-called "car". It basically because i still don't have my license yet.. And i can't stand my uncle who taught me to drive. Really can't stand de.. He said i very slow la.. bla.. bla.. bla..
So, at the peak of happiness.. I lost my handphone la.. It just so nearly that i would be able to get it back to myself.. Get back everything i could.. But I just didn't..
Ever since that moment, i was really silent. The feeling is just so real that I nearly lost all my sense.. i tried to smile in front of my friends.. I thought I would be okay..
But not till my daddy said "Lost le.. Then buy a new one lo..."
Still remember it's early morning when he saw me awake so early (I don't usually wake up early especially when it's holiday). That's the moment when the tears dropped.. All i know is that i just hope i could turn back the time..
I know.. Time can do lots of thing
Including cure your pain, erase your memory, create new experience..
But the only thing time couldn't do.. Is to let you turn back to do everything again..
I'm just can't believe that I'm gonna lost all my contacts, nice and funny meassage and meaningful MMS again..
I've lost all my contacts for this year up to 3 times la..
I have just no idea how it happen but it just happen..
I just couldn't afford to lose it again.. Not this time..
The first thing ever happened to me during this very first year is the lost of my beloved handphone.. Can be considered as my very first own handphone that daddy bought for me..
I can't blame anyone that I lost it.. It just happened because of my careless..
Still remember it happen after Chinese New Year. Well, I went out with my friends to a mini fun fair to have fun. The most enjoyable moment is when i able to drive the what-so-called "car". It basically because i still don't have my license yet.. And i can't stand my uncle who taught me to drive. Really can't stand de.. He said i very slow la.. bla.. bla.. bla..
So, at the peak of happiness.. I lost my handphone la.. It just so nearly that i would be able to get it back to myself.. Get back everything i could.. But I just didn't..
Ever since that moment, i was really silent. The feeling is just so real that I nearly lost all my sense.. i tried to smile in front of my friends.. I thought I would be okay..
But not till my daddy said "Lost le.. Then buy a new one lo..."
Still remember it's early morning when he saw me awake so early (I don't usually wake up early especially when it's holiday). That's the moment when the tears dropped.. All i know is that i just hope i could turn back the time..
I know.. Time can do lots of thing
Including cure your pain, erase your memory, create new experience..
But the only thing time couldn't do.. Is to let you turn back to do everything again..
I'm just can't believe that I'm gonna lost all my contacts, nice and funny meassage and meaningful MMS again..
I've lost all my contacts for this year up to 3 times la..
I have just no idea how it happen but it just happen..
I just couldn't afford to lose it again.. Not this time..
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Tired
Has been long time.. about a month.. hmm.. more than a month since my last post
Maybe still don't really have the habit to write blog every day.. Haha..
Well.. actually i ended my final exam today.. should be very very happy
But something happened.. Something i wished that i could turn back the time so that i would not ever do that..
Oh ya.. about my roommate lea..
Well, I'm not angry on her.. I guess this is really a big problem in my head. I can't really pissed off to someone that long..
After the day typing all my angry words through here, i think and think.. Actually i didn't even tell her what i felt, so.. i can't realy blame her for that. Maybe she just used to be like that while i don't really used to that.. Its just some mistakes in understanding each other.
Moreover, i guess she won't do that for purpose. At least i don't have a big big stone in my heart to hate and angry at someone.
Back to the title..
I had been sitting in front of my laptop
I have not been eating
I did not leave this seat
I did not stop looking at my handphone
I did not stop trying to online.. Trying to connect to someone
Since i ended my exam at 3p.m.
I thought after exam, I would not have to study
I would not have to face book 24 hours
I would not have to put myself to such a condition that i don't even know myself..
But, not this time
Forget about that.. Looks like every time and whenever i feel sad, tired, happy.. looking for someone to talk.. this is always the best spot...
Maybe still don't really have the habit to write blog every day.. Haha..
Well.. actually i ended my final exam today.. should be very very happy
But something happened.. Something i wished that i could turn back the time so that i would not ever do that..
Oh ya.. about my roommate lea..
Well, I'm not angry on her.. I guess this is really a big problem in my head. I can't really pissed off to someone that long..
After the day typing all my angry words through here, i think and think.. Actually i didn't even tell her what i felt, so.. i can't realy blame her for that. Maybe she just used to be like that while i don't really used to that.. Its just some mistakes in understanding each other.
Moreover, i guess she won't do that for purpose. At least i don't have a big big stone in my heart to hate and angry at someone.
Back to the title..
I had been sitting in front of my laptop
I have not been eating
I did not leave this seat
I did not stop looking at my handphone
I did not stop trying to online.. Trying to connect to someone
Since i ended my exam at 3p.m.
I thought after exam, I would not have to study
I would not have to face book 24 hours
I would not have to put myself to such a condition that i don't even know myself..
But, not this time
Forget about that.. Looks like every time and whenever i feel sad, tired, happy.. looking for someone to talk.. this is always the best spot...
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