I can't afford

This year is really not a very good year for me..

The first thing ever happened to me during this very first year is the lost of my beloved handphone.. Can be considered as my very first own handphone that daddy bought for me..
I can't blame anyone that I lost it.. It just happened because of my careless..

Still remember it happen after Chinese New Year. Well, I went out with my friends to a mini fun fair to have fun. The most enjoyable moment is when i able to drive the what-so-called "car". It basically because i still don't have my license yet.. And i can't stand my uncle who taught me to drive. Really can't stand de.. He said i very slow la.. bla.. bla.. bla..

So, at the peak of happiness.. I lost my handphone la.. It just so nearly that i would be able to get it back to myself.. Get back everything i could.. But I just didn't..
Ever since that moment, i was really silent. The feeling is just so real that I nearly lost all my sense.. i tried to smile in front of my friends.. I thought I would be okay..

But not till my daddy said "Lost le.. Then buy a new one lo..."
Still remember it's early morning when he saw me awake so early (I don't usually wake up early especially when it's holiday). That's the moment when the tears dropped.. All i know is that i just hope i could turn back the time..

I know.. Time can do lots of thing
Including cure your pain, erase your memory, create new experience..
But the only thing time couldn't do.. Is to let you turn back to do everything again..

I'm just can't believe that I'm gonna lost all my contacts, nice and funny meassage and meaningful MMS again..
I've lost all my contacts for this year up to 3 times la..
I have just no idea how it happen but it just happen..
I just couldn't afford to lose it again.. Not this time..

Tired

Has been long time.. about a month.. hmm.. more than a month since my last post
Maybe still don't really have the habit to write blog every day.. Haha..

Well.. actually i ended my final exam today.. should be very very happy
But something happened.. Something i wished that i could turn back the time so that i would not ever do that..

Oh ya.. about my roommate lea..
Well, I'm not angry on her.. I guess this is really a big problem in my head. I can't really pissed off to someone that long..
After the day typing all my angry words through here, i think and think.. Actually i didn't even tell her what i felt, so.. i can't realy blame her for that. Maybe she just used to be like that while i don't really used to that.. Its just some mistakes in understanding each other.
Moreover, i guess she won't do that for purpose. At least i don't have a big big stone in my heart to hate and angry at someone.

Back to the title..
I had been sitting in front of my laptop
I have not been eating
I did not leave this seat
I did not stop looking at my handphone
I did not stop trying to online.. Trying to connect to someone
Since i ended my exam at 3p.m.

I thought after exam, I would not have to study
I would not have to face book 24 hours
I would not have to put myself to such a condition that i don't even know myself..
But, not this time

Forget about that.. Looks like every time and whenever i feel sad, tired, happy.. looking for someone to talk.. this is always the best spot...