One day... one secret revealed??

Today was a..

very short yet long day..

Had a gathering with my friends..

My schoolmates!!

Oh.. How much I miss them??

Wish I can replay my memories with them again..

They are:

long time no see- Shu Teck

future beauty holder- Szuat Hui

Always laughing- Kai Sin

Super crazy of 2PM- xiao po Charlotte

enjoy disturb Charlotte like me- Li Shan

Oh.. Forgotten to scold Charlotte!

Eish... I'll have to wait till Thursday then..

This is just the opening..

What's the secret??

I can't tell.. haha

I finally able to confirm something..

something I wish he didn't involve in.

though I know it's so clear; right in front of me...

What should I do?

He's totally gonna make them upset..

can't he keep a bit low profile?

eish... he really don't care much, doesn't he?

He won't kena nag la..

but I surely get one.. a "brief" talk for sure.

Even just the other day he went out till late night,

I'm the one listening all the talk...

They want me to talk to him..

but do I qualified to say that?

What should I say??

All I know is they worried for his future..

his study... result..

That's what their job.. can't blame..

And me??

I'm just worried that he may regret in future..

Doesn't want him to follow my footprints left behind..

But he won't gonna listen..

I know..

I was once teenage like him..

ignoring everything you listened...

Oh.. What should I do know??

I talked out.. asking their opinion

I was so so confused..

Funny huh? I'm the one confused and worry

At least.. I'm pretty sure that..

if one day they see with their eyes,

he is so so dead!

He don't really know how fierce all these could be

He never receive punishment before..

unlike me.. they were strict...

very very strict...

even canning..

Probably that explains my teenage's improper behaviour

haha..

But I realised quick enough..

with minimize damage and wound..

How about him?

Would he realize quick enough?

What would happen to him in future?

Don't he know??

Hope he can realize as soon as possible..

The worst part is..

He doesn't want to talk to me!!

Hate that.. I was like talking to the wall..

though I do sometimes talk to the wall..

out of bored.. lol..

So, what now??

I know him well enough to know..

he don't like us to tell him what to do.

but is he mature enough for everything??

I'm worried..

if this continuous.. I'm going crazy la!!

L.O.V.E

L.O.V.E.

5-stars Love..

LOVE from family

Love from parents

will never harm

because the real intention are always good.

Even though we made endless mistake

while growing up

They always there to forgive and forget

help us to what we are now...

Love from parents

never ends.

Even though we might argue

we might have cold wars

They always there to help

without a words

Love from sibling

more than what you think

Even though communication might be less

there might be less understanding

but the care and love is always there

without any doubts

Love from close friend

Friends who are meant to be friends for life

Someone who care more than family

someone who ready to protect

and listen

someone who draw a smile

when you dropping tears

without hesitation

4-stars LOVE

Love from relatives

Some may break the heart

but some may heal and protect the heart

just like families

Love from friends of parents

There might have strangers feel

but at certain time

they are the one who help and protect

whenever family not around

3-stars LOVE

Love from friends

True friends give endless

care, protection and companion

True friends never harm

but some love from friends

may turn to be a scar in heart

Some friends aren't meant

to be friends due to misunderstanding

but when truth is clear

love is there

to care and heal the heart

the same way as family

Special case LOVE

The love that could give life

as well as end life.

Love to what everyone looking for

someone to care

protect.. company..

for the rest of the life

Relationship...

To the right person,

it'll give endless warmth and

endless protection

There might be arguements

it's all because too understand each other

There might be misundestanding

it's all because too care for each other

To the person who left footsteps in life,

it might hurt a lot

it might be a sad story behinds

it might be a past that should be hidden

but that's what build experience

and that's what you'll thank after a long period of time

Love..

Is what makes two hearts to become one..

Love..

Is what that makes the hearts feel warm..

The one that makes you feel

that your heart is beating..

not to stay breathing...

but for someone else

Love..

Is what makes everyone special

In a way that

everyone loves in different way.

Nothing can exactly define LOVE..

But LOVE can be the whole reason

for every steps you took

Maybe.. maybe..

I'm just too appreciate you in my life..

that I do not dare to put you

categorize to the special one

because it's just too vulnerable

that i want it to last forever...

Can't you understand?

This my steps.. Yours?

After all these while..

After all the silence moments..

After all the changes..

After all these thought..

I finally have to take my steps.

I guess..

I just have to get used to the silence

Get used to the loneliness

Get used to the fact

I have taken two steps forward..

now, there isn't any space left

I'm taking a step backward

Two steps forward

One step backward

Just to ensure everything's nice at the way it should

Now, what's your step?

To be home or not...

Arrived back to my lovely hometown yesterday around 12a.m.
Was a tired journey as my brother has to look over his bus before fetching me.. till now, still not yet meet my daddy.. The one of all who i wished to meet almost all the time.

The whole day is just perfect for me.. Reading Twilight by Stephenie Meyer..
Totally in love with Edward Cullens character and the way the writer express.. Amazing, interesting and in details which is the story that i would love to spend my free time with..
It's totally makes me addicted to the story.. The way she wrote has brought me into the story itself.. with a bit imagination.. Wonderful! Just that i have no idea how the real Edward should look like.. Haha

Till dinner time arrived.. This is the problem with my family.. The only problem which makes me think that being apart from family is something peace and needed.
Here it is.. My elder bro help my dad in business since he's in secondary school. Right now, he can be said as one of the important main bos in the company which play lots of main role.
However, he's just 21.. so young to take in all the burden.. Isn't it..
It's just unbelievable because at his age, the others are studying or even trying to own their very own first car.. But look at him.. he has his bus driving license.. Busy with everything like a successful young businessman that we all see in the movie.. The one that makes all girls dream to meet as prince in their life.
But life is not always perfect. There is a big pressure and stress behind all these burden.. Well, basically that my bro is a bit bad tempered but he actually care a lot especially me as his sister and his lovely girl friend as well..

The thing i dislike of a basic family is...
I guess all family have argument.. they argue in the tone which makes you annoyed.. makes you hurt and sad..
Mum and bro will never had a good point of view together.. They had this time argueing about job. This is what that makes me wanna ran back to Subang.
I dislike the way they argue although it always ended peacefully..
Not even when my dad and mum argue
I really and utterly dislike that.. I feel sad.. fell depress that i feel like wanna hide away from all these..
I don't really want this type of arguments.. It makes me think that having business in family isn't something. This is also one of the reason that I would never step into business career or start my own business.. I don't want to have all the complication that makes everything miserable.
The only reason i feel depress when i'm studying further is that i feel the cost of my study is a burden for my family especially when my parents argue on business.
I felt i'm the family burden.. I caused trouble in money.. I am the reason they argue so that could earn more money.
I don't want that to happen because of me.. not me.
That's also the main reason i wanna earn lots of money in future and able to support either one of my younger bro in their study future..
I hope I could..
I hope I would..
I hope..