Trying...

I have been trying...

Trying and trying..

Giving all my best

To pull in the gap

To create a conversation

To keep the faith going

To maintain the trust

To remind myself

that it's all alright...

Recently..

I had really bad dreams..

3 days continuously..

I don't know why

But in all dreams..

It's all afraid of time..

afraid for something so important in my life

I used to tell you

that I can't sleep

Remember?

Can't sleep tonight too...

Every this moments...

I miss you so so much...

At the same time,

I'm trying..

trying..

Not to think..

Not to miss.. YOU

Just you..

Although I can't.. just can't

I just feel like shouting out..

telling you..

how much "I miss you"

cause I miss you so so much...

But

I'm tired of waiting

But

I'm afraid of disappointed

But

I'm still hoping

waiting for you here

through this endless network

I can't stand any longer

After this post,

I'm changing back to the old Candy

changing this blog to private.. Again

So that..

I can build a wall...

to protect myself

from waiting for you

and disappointed every time...

Gonna miss you a lot..

each time I look out for the sky

each time I feel the warm from sun

each time I feel safe for the stars at night

Forgive me...