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Firstly,

sorry bloggie!

In this one month holiday,

I've been into my own world.

Lost all my contact with others..

especially Mr. Time.

All I've done for this holiday was just

makan, tidor, makan, tidor...

Uish.. 

Such an unhealthy life..

Sleep late, skip breakfast as well..

How can Candy be like this??

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Happy New Year, Bloggie!!

Miss me? haha..

Result:

there wasn't any update last month

Reason:

I've done nothing in the holiday lar.. 


My new year resolution:
Study hard!!!
Have to improve my result.. though I pass..
but not really good arh~~


Play hard!!!
This sem 3 need communication skills well..
I'm gonna need to find back my once upon leo skill..
haha...


Lastly..
secret.. =P


First day of new year,
I'm already homesick like gilar..
keep thinking bout "by now.. I should be.. if I'm home"
waahh.. Mama!!
Make me strong pls.. or else..
I can't live alone here..
killing me!

For you...

Remember this?

When you told me for the first time, you felt the gap between us..

The phrase run through my mind all the time..

reminding me the importance of transparency....

yet..

forgive me for being such a coward.


You told me, "You're never alone"
yet..
forgive me for being hardly reachable.


Sometimes, I felt so hardly to breath
as though you had taken away the air...
yet..
YOU are my oxygen supply.


It's never easy..
and 
There's no absolute promise.


The future is unpredictable..
and their thought are unreachable..
but
only the effort is visible.


Sometimes,
I felt so guilty..
as though I caused all these trouble.
as though I shall give up..


But the greed is so dominant,
that I need you by my side.


Will you wait,
will you stay?


I wish you would..
not only for now.. but for now and ever..
Am I asking too much?


Is your thought same as mine?


I wish everything can be simple and easy..
I wish I can preserve the sweetness...


as time pass...
will all these change?


If I said, 
'I don't mind.. I don't care..'
Can I ignore everything and hypnose myself?


It's a long journey...
which require faith, energy and believe....


Right now..
at this moment,
what I need is your courage..
Your confidence...
Stand up for us.. will you?


The joy and laughter you gave to me,
I appreciate..
The happiness you share with me,
I stored it up..


and now...
YOU = Mr. Smiley


You changed my life in a good way..
and the closed heart chamber??
It's now open to you..
Can you see?


If the footprints on the beach is solely,
will you join and make it a pair?


Thanks..
even if it's just passing by..
or even if it's momentary..
or even if it's not meant to be
I appreciate the colour you gave to my life.


Holiday arh.. Mr. Holiday..
I need you to be memorable lar...

It actually hurts a lot..

LOTS..

Too much to be handle

Whee~~

Hmm~~

Realised that...

all my previous post were about exam..

hahaha..

Sorry to cause this tension+craziness environment..

LOL...

My exam was...

well...

If you have a super photographic memory,

you can score like crazy but never perfect!

Reason:

Our SAQ paper even asked us about water sewage treatment..

=.="

hahaha.. and list how to give a healthy environment..

LOL..

All the future doctors from IMU, they ARE MULTITASK.. ahah

If you study like everyday and memorize like half gila,

you can get AT LEAST C for this exam..

hahaha..

Reason:

We have all the pharmacology question in SAQ or OBA

which shot out the name that I've never heard before

and yeah...

They expect us to know everything

LIKE EVERY SINGLE THING!!!

If you're like Candy.. she always last minute study..

and don't have super great memories..

PRAY HARD TO PASS wei!!!!

Reason:

This exam consist of 3 papers.

2 are SAQ means short answer questions 

and 1 is OBA means One Best Answer.

Both SAQ consists of 24 questions with 10 marks each

One of them is called OSPE, which is like a station answering question..

Like when the bell ring, all the 200++ students get up 

and switch to next seat every 5 minutes..

Haha.. crazy huh?

Like playing games.. =.="

and OBA has 60 questions which ask super specific and in details..

so, yeah...

PRAY HARD~~~

Anyway..

I had some nervous break down after the first SAQ paper..

but yeah.. I managed to put myself together for second day..

All I can say is..

"I really really tried my best"

that's all..

Let it be and I'm so so glad to finish..

Like wahh.. I survived through this EOS!!!

(End of Semester Exam)

After exam, have to drag myself out..

was like so so so sleepy + tired..

and finally able to find my appetite back after few days..

My health is so seriously degenerate..

plus I drink coffee to boost my focus and anything possible..

haha.. Like crazy huh?

eventhough I dislike caffeine smell

Salute to the IMU graduates!!

they survived through this stress-max-exam!! hahaha..

Can celebrate if pass.. hahaha

And my lecturer memang memang rocks lar~~

He went out with us to midvalley after exam..

Talk to us bout everything..

Every single thing..

he play drum in our uni band..

and he has a very dramatic love story..

with a wide experience of travelling..

wearing a "Self Taught Doctor" T-shirt.. lol

He's the very very friendly lecturer I ever met!!

haha.. 

Oh my god!!

I think I'm going crazy soon~~

STRESS la wei!!!

hardly breathe~~

Tomorrow exam..

12 more hours to go and

I'm not ready yet!!!!!!

Pass pass pass..

Pls pls pls.. pass

I miss you!!

I miss you!!

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I miss you la wei!!!!

Miss home like crazy!!

study study study~~

Wah lao.. I seriously need a meal at Segamat..

I want eat at Restaurant with family..

want eat freshly cooked fish..

I want eat just-cooked dishes!!!!!

mau makan banyak banyak banyak banyak!!!!!!!!

Candy's meal during study week:

Chap fan

Bread

Biscuits..
and lots lots lots lots lots of  medical books+notes

tak tahan dy lar...

I want some hot, just-cooked and nice food!!!!

>.<

I miss you~~~
2 more days to exam..
WOAHHHHHHH~~~
Scary like gilar..
pray pray..
MUST PASS wei...

Someone

I need a companion~~

Study weeks are seriously 

seriously~~

Meant to go back hometown study...if you can

T.T

What to do?

I need those plastic and picture model..

I miss my home dy~~

How much I wish Segamat is nearby!!!

I need someone..

to off the light when I 

accidentally asleep on bed.

I need someone..

to wake me when I

accidentally asleep on table..

I need someone..

to remind me when I

get on too stress and forgot to eat..

I need someone..

to company me when I

just can no longer go through..

I need someone

to tell me to rest when I

get overboard and strain myself to max..

I need someone..

to draw a smile for me when I

forgotten my smiley face..

I need someone..

to talk to me when I

study whole day.. way way too much!

I need someone..

to care about me when I

feel like going crazy any moment!

I need someone..

to bring me eat nice nice food when I

get so so hungry sometimes after study..

I need someone..

to teach and guide me when I

get lost in the stack of books!

I need someone..

to give me a hug when I

feel everything's so not okay..

I need someone..

to put me in track of time when I

just get so lazy to study..

I need someone..

to care, love and protect me..

when I'm alone~~

I miss you..

Yeah.. you.. you know who you are~~

Go home or don't?!
Staying here = living in emptiness
EXAM causes all these!!!!