After Summative~~~

Here am I
To keep my promise to bloggie..

^^

So, curious?

Wanna know my crazily hectic memorizing study???

Here we go..

First of all...

Can you guess what is that??

Hungry??

Hahah... This is the THAILAND instant noodles..

lol!!

To make it nutritious, I add vege and eggs.. 

Nice??

hahah.. study time=no time for meal..

This is my study notes..

I make my own notes de lor.. convent's book lagi.. 

(Note: this is only half of my notes.. haha.. Medicine's never that less)

Next, to my exam format..

very very weird+special.. haha..

All In ONCE!!

1st: OSPE- mean separate diagrams with timed questions

(Note: lecture will collect the diagram after 10 mins..)

funny right??

2nd: OBA- 50 objective questions

(tough giler.. keep asking drugs, side effect)

3rd: EMQ- same like objectives, just got more than 10 choices only 

(with limited time lagi.. =.=")

4th: This really epic!! MEQ- each part 7 mins..

description: like playing game. got 2 envelope. First, take the first red paper and answer then time reached, put to 2nd envelope. Then take 2nd green paper

(Note: sometimes 2nd part got 1st part answer..)

Like quiz lar..

funny thing is that..

everyone have to bend down and take paper at the same time..

TRY to imagine!!

 (Every single person oh.. up to almost 200) haha

Imagine, bending right.. then bend to left to take envelope on floor..

Gonna suffer from back pain after that..

Hmm.. I doubt.. lol!!

 "what to do??" 

study till bored.. taken before exam..

haha.. that's seriously so IMU!

:(

It's 3.50am..

and Candy's still reading her notes..

Kesian her la..

Have been sitting in the chair,

reading, writing, memorizing..

for almost 1 week!!!

even more!!

:(

I'm so so so tired of continuosly reading..

Candy ain't that guai de..

Used to last minute..

but medicine ain't easy for me..

:((((

continue study...

hz...

Note: I'm trying my best to finish everything..

yet..

I'M AFRAID I CAN'T!!!

Panic attack!! aaahhhhhhhh

Summative Sem 3

Hmmm~~
ever since last incidence- EOS 2 exam,

Candy really regret dah..

Trying my best to study hard

for the coming Summative.

Semester 3 dah..

Studying cardiovascular + respiratory system now..

Super super superiorly lots to memorize..

lots of MEDICAL TERM!!

Can flood a tall man with all the words!!

Haha..

keep this short..

Pictures coming soon..

After 11 March!!

Note: I can now officially use my stethoscope!! haha..
So, would you lend me your heart to listen?

Hope

Drops by drops...

The heavy loaded water droplets landed on my umbrella..

Steps by steps...

The strong wind forces the water to store up in my long pants..

At that moment,

how much I wish..

I wasn't walking back alone.

The supposingly 10minutes walk..

has appeared to be an endless pathway..

The cold.. 

The wind..

The water..

Somehow seems like welcoming me..

They're asking me to join the rain.

Drop the umbrella,

Off the mask on face,

and smile brightly to enjoy the rain!

Dance, instead of walk..

Run, instead of slow walk!

This vivid scene 

is like a stucked video player..

repeating continuosly in my mind.

And..

slowly the loneliness creep in..

like a devil giving you an agreement..

Showing you the easy pathway.

At that moment...

I wish hard.. very hard..

that any of my friend who's driving..

anyone!

can just pass by and pick me up..

send my "safely and dry" to my room..

A horn from a car..

will immediately pop the hope..

How nice would it be to have someone to fetch?

How nice is it to have a companion?

How warm is it when you saw someone waiting after class?

How warm is it when you talked and smiled all the way walking back??

How many times my friends invited me to Block B?

I lost the counts..

Everyday of my class..

Every 10minutes walk to uni..

For almost a year..

How long can I still hold on to this long distance?

I guess...

I'm just looking for a reason to continue staying Block A..

maybe.. I'm just tired of walking.

no matter..

it's rainny.. sunny.. windy.. or snowy??

Yet..

here am I.. still at block A

我们都怕痛

她说她在也不相信真爱，

我能给的安全感也用完。

原本的孤单已变成不安。

想看穿却又放不下依赖

看着她低头， 勇敢牵着她就走，

别怕，只要在一起就能穿越黑昼。

她的眼睛说 ，含着迷人却猜不透

她的脆弱只有我能看透。

我们都怕痛， 但又好想试着牵手。

两颗心影藏在背后。。。不敢承诺。

不想再难过，丢弃回忆重新来过 。

让我永远牵着你，把手给我。

她说她在也不相信真爱，

我能给的安全感也用完。

原本的孤单已变成不安。

想看穿却又放不下依赖

看着我低头， 她说她愿跟我走，

好怕，让他心碎的痛又反复折磨。

我的眼睛说，笑或泪我都会守候

他是我唯一执着的执着

我们都怕痛，但又好想试着牵手

两颗心影藏在背后 不敢承诺

不想再难过 丢弃回忆重新来过

让我永远牵着你， 把手给我。

我们都把痛， 但又好想试着牵手

两颗心影藏在背后 不敢为爱承诺

不想再难过 丢弃回忆重新来过

让我永远牵着你， 把手给我。

让我永远牵着你， 把手给我。

Gentleman~~

Once upon a loooonnng looonnng ago post,

I wrote about 

this very gentleman of my life.

I lay my love on him..

appreciate to have him..

As my Dad.

My dad,

who gave me a comfy life..

a healthy body to smile..

a non-worriness air to breathe..

Now,

ladies and gentleman..

Let me officially introduce you all..

another very gentleman of my life!

Before the final announcement,

will you all read up about his greatness?

please do..

His presence in my life..

Is a grateful and luckiness of mine.

His presence in my life..

Is how I got a shoulder to rely on.

His presence in my life..

Is a shelter that I earned after I'm all by myself.

His presence in my life..

Is a companion that I have since I was born.

Every little thing he did..

every little pieces he done without telling..

I know..

he do care and love me a lot.

I couldn't even imagine one second..

not even half second..

for not having him in my life.

He's my guardian angle from god..

My one and only elder bro..

CK Tey!

When we were young,

he's a bully to me..

causing tears from my eyes..

and ended being punished together.

When we were teenage,

we went to different schools..

causing less communication..

yet your protective side never less any moment.

When we growing up,

everything you done..

Is what letting me able to study at IMU now.

He's the one..

to take my UPSR result.

He's the one..

to drive me for PMR result.

He's the one..

to give me courage for SPM result.

He's the one..

sending me for my Pre-U.

He's the one..

Paying for my first rental at Subang.

He's my another parents.

Even till now,

he's the one 

helped me moving room.

he's the one

helped me no matter wat.

he's the one who so protective..

and fetch me all the way,

no matter how busy he could ever be.

Sometimes,

I really feel sorry..

Sorry to him.

As though I have taken his opportunities to study.

Sorry to him.

cause I can't help him in business.

If the sky gonna collapse down,

my dad will be the first one to hold up..

and he'll be the one protecting.

Even...

how much he love his gf,

he still.. still love me lots.

Especially..

tempting to buy Iphone for me..

anything that I want.

Thanks..

what else can I say?

How can I pay back??

They said elder sister may be better..

but listen, he's the best elder bro anyone will ask for..

How grateful am I...

Past.. Present.. yet no future

There's a day in 365 days per year..

that was once remarkable to me.

that was once meaningful to me.

yet..

it's already losing it's valuable.

There're a bits and pieces of you inside..

that were once welcoming.

that were once pleasant.

yet..

it's already losing it's appearance in my life.

I had once make a wish for you..

and..

I still do..

just in an opposite way now.

Surprisingly,

it was once very hurtful 

but, it's now healing.

It was once unforgivable

but, it's now forgetful.

It was once a poison

but, it's now nothing!

How great can my mind work?

I don't know...

but I do know..

there's always a limit.

Once in a loong loong time..

so is now.

I guess..

You just lost my faith on you.

and beware, once gone..

it'll never come back.

You taught me this, and listen..

I learnt it well..

I might smiled at you.. but you know, I am afraid of you in fact.