Confusion

Here's my life...

Tey Candy..

Here's how the perfect describe of her life...

She is someone who don't even know what she wants basically...

Someone who actually love simple but always trap in confusion...

Someone who actually don't even understand the world well...

Someone who always get hurt, feel like telling the world but never try...

Someone who don't even know her future well...

Someone who can't even handle her friendship and relationship well...

Someone who fail and felt down in her life's goal many times...

Someone who actually alone in this world as she never has many friends...

Someone who hate to made decision knowing that either the decision will hurt others...

Someone who thinks for others but never know how to think for herself...

Someone who actually love to talk and share her thinking but don't have friends to stay beside all the time...

Someone who actually love people to care for her but doesn't want the relationship to involve love except only friendship...

Someone who has bad memory in remembering...

Someone who always choose to hide and run away from truth...

Someone who hates lies but has too much secret in the heart till she couldn't differentiate true and lies...

Someone who don't even know when is the moment she feel truly happy and relaxing

Someone who don't even know what's the most important memory in her life...

Someone who wish to be different but end up as alone...

Someone who don't really know herself but can write all these!!

Jacob Black

Jacob Black in Twilight series movie is played by Taylor Lautner...

For me, he's totally cool and suitable to be Jacob Black. It's just fit into everything describe in stories. The way he tried to protect Bella and of course, his smile... The smile that described once by Bella as the Sun.

I couldn't denied that he's really much younger than what I thought. He's even younger than me by one years. That's surprising... Haha... He's really my cup of tea!! I mean in characteristic form.

So, I would try to list down his way that attract me... ^.^

First of all, the way he is...

he always get things straight up..

Most important is his big smile..

Melting... Haha...

He's the one that help Bella at her darkest moment..

His quote... Nice words...

Funny as well...

Mostly from Eclipse where he and Bella getting better than just friend and nest to New Moon.

Breaking down is just a too sad.

I’m in love with you, Bella. Bella, I love you. And I want you to pick me instead of him. I know you don’t feel that way, but I need the truth out there so that you know your options. I wouldn’t want a miscommunication to stand in our way.
Jacob Black, Eclipse, Chapter 14, p.327

(I like the way he express his love)

Until your heart stops beating, Bella. I’ll be here — fighting. Don’t forget that you have options.
Jacob Black, Eclipse, Chapter 15, p.330

(He never give up and try very hard for Bella)

Next time you want to hit me, use a baseball bat or a crowbar, okay?
Jacob Black, Eclipse, Chapter 15, p.335

(Funny ^.^)

Could I please have just a few seconds of your undivided attention, Miss Swan?
Jacob Black, Eclipse, Chapter 17, p.373

(Asking for attention in the way that draw a smile)

Well, I figured that maybe it would make you remember me once in a while. You know how it is, out of sight, out of mind.
Jacob Black, Eclipse, Chapter 17, p.375

(Good excuse after kissing Bella?)

When are you finally going to figure out that you’re in love with me, too?

Jacob Black, Eclipse, Chapter 21, p.481

(Oh... in emotion!!)

Go fetch a space heater. I’m not a St. Bernard. You asked for a space heater and here I am!
Jacob Black, Eclipse, Chapter 22, p.489

(P/S: St. Bernard is one species of dog that breed to rescue)

I knew you were just as crazy jealous as I am.
Jacob Black, Eclipse, Chapter 22, p.497

(Undoubtedly, he's an understanding man)

I didn’t say it wasn’t the best night I’ve ever spent. Just that I didn’t get a lot of sleep. I thought Bella was never going to shut up.
Jacob Black, Eclipse, Chapter 23, p.509

(It's just funny the way he is)

That should have been our first kiss. Better late than never.
Jacob Black, Eclipse, Chapter 23, p.530

(I guess he's really in love..)

He’s like a drug for you, Bella. I see that you can’t live without him now. It’s too late. But I would have been healthier for you. Not a drug; I would have been the air, the sun.
Jacob Black, Eclipse, Chapter 26, p.599

(He's totally just a sun.. Hot and important!)

The clouds I can handle. But I can’t fight with an eclipse.
Jacob Black, Eclipse, Chapter 26, p.600

(Now, I know why the title is Eclipse)

I’ll always be waiting in the wings, Bella. You’ll always have that spare option if you want it.
Jacob Black, Eclipse, Chapter 26, p.602

(He's totally causing people to bleed just looking at the way he love Bella)

I’m just here to be your friend. Your best friend, one last time.
Jacob Black, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 4, p.62

(Sad... But the sentence means a lot. It's really a breaking down)

So are you going to be my Valentine? Since you didn’t get me a fifty-cent box of candy, it’s the least you can do.
Jacob Black, New Moon, Chapter 9, p.202

(He's totally adorable!)

As long as you like me the best. And you think I’m good-looking—sort of. I’m prepared to be annoyingly persistent.
Jacob Black, New Moon, Chapter 9, p.212

(He's kinda annoying but really funny)

I won’t lose you, Bella. Not for this.
Jacob Black, New Moon, Chapter 12, p.290

(Wow!)

Well, I’m so sorry that I can’t be the right kind of monster for you, Bella. I guess I’m just not as great as a bloodsucker, am I?
Jacob Black, New Moon, Chapter 13, p.307

(Disappointed)

Bella: I love you.

Jacob: I love you more.

(Unbelievable!)

Does my being half naked bother you?

Jacob Black, New Moon
(Real hot and of course it bother!)

A friend of mine

3rd December 2009

Before I started, let me introduce my smiley supplier.

Here it goes::

It started when I was in Form 5. I organised a trip to KL for factory stuff and visit here and there at the end of the year which would be at December.

It was initially under Leo Club but since there's only few members joined, I decided to open it up to everyone no matter who they are.

So, this is how friendship is bonded.

In the Add Maths tuition, Mr. Xiong, I sat just beside a girl name Ah Bai who is Seg Hwa student.

She is very helpful although I meant to help her in Maths. We had a real great time together in tuition... (This can be seen as we even gave birthday present to each other but now getting less in contact ever since our seat is changed and Serene seat beside me instead)

So, he is friend of Ah Bai. I asked her to help me with the trip. The very first supportive one is surely him.

He can be considered the only one who sign up immediately (after few days of course).

He get my number as he has to send his I/C number to me for the insurance of trip.

Although at the end the trip was not success, he is the only one of few who asked me not to cancel it. Can see that he kinda excited to look forward for the trip.

So, as i said before that he had my contact number..

As days passed, we chat and even talk through the phone.

We share our thought and mostly all our chat are happy ever after.

He's really good in talking jokes especially comes to entertaining messages.

he always draw a big smile on my face without fail even he just talk me out what he did the whole day.

The first time we met each other is due to a bet we had. I lost the bet and need to pay the price as I felt asleep first. He's really a nice guy.

So, that's how we met. He drove my car before when I was nearby Segamat Bahru as I having my hospital attachment nearby. I just feel myself much more lighter a lot whenever talk to him.

It's like you can talk everything no matter sad or angry because at the end, everything will makes a smile on my face.

He's totally "My Jacob"... The sun who brings warm and smile... Like him..

Alright back to the topic..

Yesterday we promise to meet each other again since we hadn't met from the first day I went out for further study at Subang while he's pursuing his architecture career.

I set the day which initially has to be 2nd November but due to transport problem, I postponed the day to 3rd November.

He set the time to be 3.30p.m.

I was initially not nervous as whenever having this meet. there'll never be silence moment.

I felt comfortable around him, I guess.

For him, I guess he always talk that much.. (That's what he said about himself)

He was late due as his Mum cook porridge for him (How nice...)

But end up I was the only one eating while he just do all the talk.

By the way, this meal was his... ^.^

P/S: Thinking of getting him a new wallet for his coming birthday

So, we ended around 5.15p.m.. He said it was short as he arrive around 4.15p.m (We usually can talk for hours without stop. It's like we have bunch of things to share)

That's him...

And, as the usual D... He horn me while he's at the back of my car as a sign of "Welcome"- he said after I thanks him for the meal...

He's just.. well, always there to make me smile. That's all I can say.

And.. always ready to talk and have a real long chat as well..

He's sort of the first guy that officially be my best male friend..

I talked a lot with him and even share lots of details on every detail of daily life...

He's the first guy that I went out with to have a drinks.. (Not in a bunch of friends... just he and I)

He's the first guy who I think I'm most comfortable with..

All I can say is that... I'm glad to meet him as my friend...

Twilight Saga - New Moon

I watched the movie on 27 November 2009!!

I'm really too excited to watch the movie... Can't wait to see Jacob has his hair cut...

It is really hot and handsome...

I like the way he tried to protect and cheer Bella up..

The way he looks into the eyes of Bella and try to tell her how much he love him and yet try to keep her happy and protected from any harm...

He did a very big sacrifice and always ready to provide his shoulder for Bella like a guardian... Especially when Edward wasn't around for Bella...

The movie is really.... Well... Nice movie...

I had read the book version and after watching the movie, I realised that I can actually understand better and picture better...

It may not be as exciting as I was reading the story book...

At the scene whether Jacob will be able to win Bella's heart back or not...

At the scene whether Bella could make it or not to save Edward from being exposed...

I was so attracted when I was reading the story... Even forgotten the time is ticking as passing very fast...

I still actually like Jacob's character when I first read more about him in New Moon...

Recently, I started reading on Eclipse...

I could understand that Edward is more suitable for Bella but yet... I still like Jacob...

His character which always ready to draw a smile on you...

I would love to have a sun around me... Just don't dry me up... ^.^

Twilight Saga: New Moon

Oh.. Yeah!!

I'm going to watch New Moon tomorrow ..

I have been reading the story book and finished New Moon by last Saturday..

I was so addicted to the storyline..

Can't wait to watch with him tomorrow... It's gonna be amazing..

Waiting for it..

The Last one and Only one...

I have officially ended my college's life!!!
No longer need to..
stay up late to study for test, examination or assignments
skipped lunch or dinner to fight for more time
wake up early and attend class till 4p.m.
force myself to study almost everyday
loaded with past year papers and exercises
stay in library almost all the time for study
pay attention in class although sleepy
strain myself over the exhausted feeling
afraid of my score, my marks and whether I'm doing the correct path or not
keeping up myself to the speed of light
making sure all the important dates of study and passing up

Alright.. good bye to all of that!!!

Yesterday, I wrote out my voice over what my thoughts to all my classmates but I don't dare to show it in public for them to know..
Here it is..:

The first day I step into college’s life was hard and scary although I enroll in with my high school classmates.
The first classmate that I get to know is Ai Ling and next is Khai Ling.

My heart was beating very fast when I was first in a class with other new students. I was afraid, with all assignment and projects need to be done.
I could hardly breathe in when I was fully loaded with new challenge after a long break holiday.
I could hardly sleep when assignment and study are both up to my head.
I could hardly smile when my high school classmate leave me here and next is Ai Ling.. I never told both of you, but I was sad that time being alone.
I could hardly eat when exam is around the corner.
I could hardly enjoy the course when there’s nothing to be happy.

However, that’s all in the past!!

Now, I am glad to be a part of E2, happy to know each of my classmates. Gonna miss all of you after SAM..

Here’s some of my opinion when I firstly met and get to know you all..
P/S: I start randomly.. ^.^

Khai Ling
I don’t really know you when I first met you. I do misunderstand you few times at first for your being BUT when I get to know you, I know you’re a great leader with full of responsibility. Besides, this girl has high twisting mind for Physics.
Thanks for all your help and support throughout this whole course.
Keep in touch cause I don’t want to lose such a good friends.. I can’t afford.

Christina, Seow Chuieng
The very first time I met you, the only sentence that cross my mind is “Wow! She’s really pretty and beautiful.”
You remind me of my old friend who is just like you.. Haha..
I have to admit that when I first get to know you, you seem to be in trouble almost all your time till I thought Khai Ling was your guardian to solve everything. Haha.. Pls don’t mind.
After getting to know you, I can share almost everything with you. Thanks to you too for the help and support you gave throughout these whole messes that I went through. I can’t afford to forget you, so please keep in touch as well.

Ai Ling
Well, we were first really close till we had some arguments..
But I have to say that you know me well and glad to have you around either as roommate or classmates. And the most important is, you really have to relax when examination arrive. You make me out of my nerves as well when you start to stress and I don’t really control temper well.. haha.. And, you’re really good in Chemistry and Biology especially with your super hardworking effort is undeniable.

Brinda
I had such a wonderful time with you and getting to meet you when we met during JPA interview but you don’t seem to know me.. That’s sad..
I have to say you’re really Biology lover which is totally opposite to me.. Haha..
Wish you all the best for your marine biology career in future. You’re really good in Biology and English which are both subjects that I never ever wish to step in further.

Harkiran
You’re just always laughing and I know you’re really someone who understand and good listener. Glad to know you and have you around during Bio lab.

Debbie, Hao Yi, Jac and Sarah
All I can describe is.. They just laugh almost all the time. That’s really something that I hope I could. Debbie is just cute and full of energy all the time by being herself. Hao Yi is just someone with good self-confidence and dress up well. Jac laugh almost all the time and being supportive all the time. Sarah may sometimes get to be a little bit quiet but she is someone who always ready to back you up!

Mathias
Well, really glad to know you here although we’re from the same hometown. Hope to hear from you in future as a surgeon.. Brain surgeon? I don’t really know you well but I’m sure you always help people and you have almost everything in your pencil case because every time I asked for stationery stuff like scissors, you totally have them.

Ling Chuing
Glad to know you further in the Manipal trip and I could see how much you like ice skating…

Kar Ying and Natalie
Well… Other than being helpful, I can only say that they have really good sense in talking… haha… Please don’t misunderstanding… It’s just that I enjoy talking with you all as it seems to be comforting and relaxing.

Hwee Mien and Wai Yin
Both of you have really good talking skills. And of course, high intelligence in study and undeniable will be great successful person in future. Thanks again for all your help when I’m in trouble (I guess both of you know what I mean).

Wen Zhee
You’re really helpful and kind. I was surprised on what you wrote in my year book. It seems like you have known me for years! Thanks for all the words and salute for your professional photographing and video skills. Glad to have you as leader in Moral group.

Ter Wei, Turkey
I don’t really understand Turkey language but could not deny that you have good memory which will be helpful for you, doctor. You are really someone who can laugh and smile almost all the time with no worries AT ALL. Be a great doctor and please do save life in future…

Andrew
You have really high twist and IQ which give me an impression as future physicist. Your great ability in physics is totally outstanding. I know you do compete mark with me in physics, but you have to know that you really have high understanding in physics and more else. You’ll be success in future with your outstanding brain.

Wai Kit
I knew you’re really hardworking when I saw you started to do Maths past year paper before anyone else. Besides, you asked questions when you don’t understand and that’s totally prove your effort in study. Don’t have to ask you work harder but I’m sure you’re success man in few years to come.

Deepen
Well, I started to get to know you when we’re in a group for Mathematics.
As a reply for what you wrote in my year book,
If I really do open a shop called “Fancy Candy”, I’ll definitely invite you as special guest for opening ceremony. Haha…
From what I know, you seems to be more mature than anyone of us… Good presentation in physics just like an expert.

The others who not listed
I don’t really get to know you all but I am glad to have you all in E2..

Nice to meet all of you and please please keep in touch. Hope and wish to meet you all in the future one days…

Maybe later of today or tomorrow.. who knows when i'll change my mind..

The End

Today is the last day of college schooling..

Well, tomorrow is going to be the Moral examination.. which means tomorrow will be the last one hour at Taylor's College University..

The last one.. The last step into the college life again..



Well, today is the last day of Moral class..

I firstly thought it's gonna be boring..

This is because early morning, we'll have the test again.. The last third quiz..

Next, move on to the next reason which the lecturer told us that the whole day will mean for the assignment on recycle stuff.. Well, "waste of time" comes to my mind within a second..



However... The big twist of today..

I do enjoy this last lesson..

The time that my entire group spending time to twist our mind to think for the idea.

Surprisingly, there are few of the guys really not grown up as the using the newspaper to fold so-called aeroplane and "flying all around"..

Haha.. But it was fun though...



Then.. we came out with the plan of doing the Big Mother Earth using newspaper..

Unbelievable that I do really enjoy the whole process.. basically I realized I'm within them..

I do and follow the orders.. although they asked me to buy drinks.. as I'm playing phone game that time..

We almost run out of time but.. I do help up at the last critical moment.. Haha.. That's more important..

And our lovely slogan "Save our Mother Earth".. beautifully design.. haha

As we learnt before from Old Testament in Christian Bible which states the God created the Earth in 6 days..

But, Mosquito, Turkey and me.. We actually take few hours to build and create the Earth using newspaper.. Haha.. Just a joke..

It is fun and enjoyable to do all kind of crazy stuff.. I do enjoy and proud of our products as it stands out among all!



Proud to be within E2.. classmates forever..Although we may not meet again so frequently, I'm glad to meet them. There could be some misundertands happens, I may know their true colours of their life again, I may realize the real world.. I may know they don't mean to be the real friends.. BUT they do surprise me.. Forgive everything but I'm going to note down all special moments..