Proudly present~

**Proud + Happy**

haha..

On the 21st September 2010,

Tey Candy officially drive her beloved

and precious car, JJ 1111

who is 19 years old this year 

under unbelievable good condition 

to Subang Jaya from Bkt. Jalil!!

Haha..

Believe your eyes..

You're reading a fact.. lol..

haha..

Yeah.. I know.. i know..

I don't have any experience 

to drive at highway.

I don't have enough experience

to drive at SJ which is a kinda scary place.

I don't have any experience

to drive at professional rate..

But I survived!!

I survive wei.. haha..

I managed to arrive to SJ,

Managed to go through the crazy roundabout,

Manage to park car nicely!

haha..

When 3 of my friends sit up to the car,

I seriously asked them to put on seatbelt,

call anyone they want before I drive,

prepare the heart and

ensure insurance protected.

Hahaha..

Candy isn't a good driver..

cause she is still learning....

When I was driving,

the feeling of driving kinda like

as though I'm at Segamat.

I never.. never drive anywhere else 

other than Segamat, till now..

It kinda like..

heal my wound, my homesick.

I felt happy.. Felt satisfied..

and still feeling comfort although being away from home.

Eh eh..

see see.. I can drive.. haha..

Firstly when we decided to go SJ,

I was kinda hesitate.

Cause I'm kinda afraid for my skills..

afraid to risk their life..

But.. but.. they are good supporter.. haha..

And my mum, and lovely elder bro..

they didn't scold me lo..

haha..

I told my mum everything..

in details.. she doesn't seem to worry, though..

haha.. and my bro, well..

he just said, "Really not?! Ice cream la u.."

haha.. his favourite phase..

That's all lo..

I manage to park my car back in order..

hehe.. reverse parking..

I tau wei.. haha

and my beloved car still in original condition.

that's good...

Next stop,

to where you are..

yeah, you.. you.. the one reading..

lol.. joking (^.~)

Grateful

It's Sunday night...

I hate sunday night..

Like always..

I don't know how to describe my feeling.

All I can feel..

All I want..

Is just......

I wish I'm still at Segamat now.

and tomorrow is a holiday.

When will I be back again?

I'm already missing them once they left.

I can't get used to the silence

after all the noise...

The silence is creeping me out..

as though I arrived to the moon.

Thanks..

to my brothers.. especially my elder brother.

I am always grateful to have him.

Grateful to have someone to protect me.

He cleaned and prepared for me..

I'll remember your advice

“记住，停车时要注意。。有什么事就打给我。

知道吗？

退车是要看后面。。

我真的真的很担心你parking的技术。。

park好好， 知道吗？”

also to my mum and dad..

Mum，“再学几次就会park啦。。她可以的。。

慢慢来，知道吗？”

Daddy was very very worried, the most...

even disagree with the idea at first..

but before I leave, he handed me money

like double of usual..

“驾车上去了，不要乱跑。。知道吗？

不要乱乱出去。。也不要一个人驾车，懂吗？

驾车了，花的钱也会多。。

不够时，要打给我。

不要傻傻的等到钱没了才打。”

What else would I wish for?

I am blessed..

and showered with care.

Grateful...

**In deep down of my heart, I can feel the love...

They have touched my heart in a way that cause grateful tears**

I want boycott!!!

Oh oh..

Friday night already..

T.T

I still in holiday mood...

One week break is so so NOT enough..

Dear Mr. Time,

Can you replay the time from last friday again?

Pls pls pls...

Wanna stay at home~~

Wish next week is holiday too...

Cause..

It's my 19th birthday

also the first time I'm gonna celebrate without family..

although they usually forgot my birthday

as I'm birth date is the last one

and also further apart from them..

(also the time Mum&Dad very very busy...)

I still wanna celebrate home~~

Really really wanna celebrate.. Just like last year, at home..

Especially this year...

at least at home... the least

cause it's the exact day

on both calendar(lunar and western)

How pathetic~~

Don't want celebrate alone..

eish.. won't la.. won't la..

won't alone.. hehe

Forgiveness

Forgive me..

for not persistent enough.

Forgive me..

for not brave enough.

Forgive me..

for not being truthfully enough.

Forgive me..

for not having a strong heart.

Forgive me..

for not being able undo the scar.

Forgive me..

for everything I had done.

I am tired...

Tired of being the one to keep trying.

Tired of being the one to keep apologizing.

I admit..

I had mistaken.

I apologize.

You?

Hurting you..

Is never an option I ever chose.

Missing you..

Is never a future I ever wanted.

Now..

I am tired..

Tired...

I tried.. tried.. and tried.

I am exhausted..

Let's put a dot, then.

Make it to end.

You...

You have no idea..

how many tears dropped for this conflict.

You have no idea..

how many sleepless night I had for this conflict.

You have no idea..

how much I wish for forgiveness.

I've never felt so hopeless before.

I always believe forgiveness...

just as much as I forgive.

There's no turning back...

days.. days and months passed.

Still... it remain the same.

There's no forgiveness..

Why?

Why does this mistake unforgivable?

Why?

Now...

I am putting down everything..

Forgiving myself...

and letting you go...

From now on, you and I..

We? There won't be "We"

It's your choice.

Or..

This is fate.

Although...

I do appreciate our friendship.

our ended friendship.

AIR Topic is officially

killing my brain cells!!!!!!!!!!

Ughh...

I redo.. reread... refocus..

and I'm still not in the right track!!!

Stupid assignment

of 450 words

that worth only 1 mark!!!!!!

Screw AIR Topic!!!

Uish!!!

Mengeramkan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wasting my time and sleep..

(Tomorrow CSU-clinical skills unit..

gonna examine ear, mouth and throat..

morning 8am.. T.T)

Miracles~~

BIG BIG News!!

haha..

Against all odds..

wah..

Am I dreaming ah?

Haha..

I'm up to cloud nine de la..

It's like a fairytale..

Oh wow...

It happens to me..

I believe more than ever to fairytale now..

Anything's possible!!!

Remember back my past

few old post??

I lost my wallets..

My I/C, cards and cash..

Guess what??

Someone mailed my I/C, resident card and

my popular card Back to my house at hometown

according to my address at I/C!!!!

My mum said it was from unknown citizen

written Tey Candy in front

with a normal used envelope

and 60cents stamp!

I can't ask more..

early birthday present?!

It's a good surprise!!

Whoever he/she is...

Thanks so so so much!!

I wish I can give him/her a big warm hug!!

Haha..

Whatever reason, I'm glad to have my I/C back..

Wohoo.. I have my I/C

Dead End??

I can't believe this..

Am I sure?

Is this a dream?

What had I done?!

I paid the car park lot today...

RM300 for the first 3 months..

It's a very strategic location of the car park lot as it's just

few steps away from the lift entry.

When the lady asked,

"Where's your car? What's your car plat number?"

I don't know how to answer!!

Haha..

Candy ah Candy...

Can I take care of the car?

Can I drive at kl?

Can I take the responsible?

Can I handle everything?

Most important....

Can I put my trust upon myself??

Dad and mum were busy..

Busy what??

Choosing car.. haha..

They asked my opinion..

All I know is..

"I want white colour and black inside"

Lol.. that's all I want.

Dunno la~~

"Fan ah fan... drive a car also fan.."

I need GPS for sure... haha..

Geography failed sense...

Had I read a dead end here?

??!!??

I guess it's just about to begin..

Disaster?!

I don't know!!