Forgiveness

Forgive me..

for not persistent enough.

Forgive me..

for not brave enough.

Forgive me..

for not being truthfully enough.

Forgive me..

for not having a strong heart.

Forgive me..

for not being able undo the scar.

Forgive me..

for everything I had done.

I am tired...

Tired of being the one to keep trying.

Tired of being the one to keep apologizing.

I admit..

I had mistaken.

I apologize.

You?

Hurting you..

Is never an option I ever chose.

Missing you..

Is never a future I ever wanted.

Now..

I am tired..

Tired...

I tried.. tried.. and tried.

I am exhausted..

Let's put a dot, then.

Make it to end.

You...

You have no idea..

how many tears dropped for this conflict.

You have no idea..

how many sleepless night I had for this conflict.

You have no idea..

how much I wish for forgiveness.

I've never felt so hopeless before.

I always believe forgiveness...

just as much as I forgive.

There's no turning back...

days.. days and months passed.

Still... it remain the same.

There's no forgiveness..

Why?

Why does this mistake unforgivable?

Why?

Now...

I am putting down everything..

Forgiving myself...

and letting you go...

From now on, you and I..

We? There won't be "We"

It's your choice.

Or..

This is fate.

Although...

I do appreciate our friendship.

our ended friendship.